21/07/2022
Watching the this morning discuss baby loss stirred up emotions I’ve not had for quite sometime.
The topic for discussion was baby loss as I prefer to call it, it’s medically referred to as a miscarriage or pregnancy loss both are correct but don’t take into account the emotional loss of your very much wanted (and already) loved baby.
There is no recognition for the loss of a baby and from October there will be a certification of your loss. At the moment it is as if the pregnancy didn’t happen, and sometimes it’s not even on your medical record.
When I lost my babies, they were part of my husbands and my future, our family, a brother or sister for my son.
The trauma of losing baby no 1 at home was horrendous, an ambulance called in the early hours, my husband needing to stay with our little boy and me alone and very frightened. It’s something I’ll never forget.
Baby no 2 on visiting for a regular scan being told very bluntly there’s no heart beat, again I was alone, I was devastated! My husband left work to pick up the pieces because I completely fell apart!
The grief was a huge, yet wasn’t recognised! Rest, recover and try again, were words very quickly spoken by the medical practitioners.
In these situations people don’t really know what to say, comments are made that hurt so deeply. You’re fit and healthy, you’ll have another one! NO, I want that one! It’s natures way! That may be, but it’s not something I wanted to hear.
When you become pregnant, life instantly changes, is it a girl? Is it a boy? What will we call our new addition?
From October there will be recognition of the loss of a baby, there will be a certificate available which for many will help, I’ve found my peace and am blessed to have two wonderful children, I would have loved 4 but it wasn’t to be.
If you’ve ever lost a baby, talk about it, I talked and it amazed me to hear of so many women say they too had suffered a loss, even relatives, we shouldn’t feel fearful of talking.
I work with women who are trying to conceive, I work with women going through IVF, I work with women who are pregnant and am so invested in each and every one ❤️