01/04/2026
I always try to be transparent, I dont pretend to have it all figured out and from time to time I also struggle with my MH .
Yesterday didn’t go the way I’d hoped. I went in expecting to finally get a date for my operation, but instead I left without one. On top of that, I learned my consultant won’t actually be doing the urology part of the surgery, which I had always assumed he would. That’s been hard to take in.
My pre-op is about to expire again, so I’m back in that frustrating place of not being able to plan anything, while still dealing with the pain. They’ve added three new medications and swapped another, bringing things up to around 50 tablets a day, which honestly feels overwhelming. Everything feels a bit foggy and numbing, like I’m moving through a cloud. It’s a strange, unsettling feeling.
I know I will get through it , as I gave so many time before but for now just bare with me whilst I sit with it for a while 💚
