21/07/2020
The last few days have been extremely insightful for me. I’ve been making a strong effort to stay in a positive chilled out place which has brought awareness and insight to the forefront of my mind - which means it needs some of my attention. I believe in life, our biggest lessons are sent to us over and over until we have truly learnt from them and overcome them. Sometimes you think you’ve completed the cycle, and there are still remaining webs to be cleared away. For me, a fear of rejection has been continual in many areas of my life, something I’ve learnt a lot from but am still learning. A friend said something to me yesterday which floored me. It floored me because I felt exposed and because there was clearly still work to do. I was able to recognise that the discomfort was there for a reason to do with how I view myself and my life. I could have been angry at them, but I know this was uncomfortable because of work I needed to do. It wasn’t about them being horrible, it floored me because of ME, It needed my focus which is why it came up. Are you aware of your repeating patterns? Do you have webs that still need to be cleared away? How do you deal with it?
