01/10/2025
This time it was my turn to receive a treatment 😊
Last week I attended a Myofascial Energetic Release (MER) course at the Leela Centre in Dorset. What an incredible week it was — a week of learning, but more importantly, a week of being nurtured. My own tank had been running low, not just for myself but also for giving to others. Over time, I’ve felt that my clients evolve alongside me; my progress becomes their progress. I even dare to say we’ve grown together over the years 😊. Yet I sometimes worry they might become bored, so I keep investing in regular training, professional growth, and personal development.
During this course, lying on the treatment table, I had a profound realisation. MER is not simply massage — it’s a therapy that goes much deeper. It’s both an art and a science of deep bodywork. It works to release emotional holding patterns, chronic muscle tension, and pain. As the work went deeper, I uncovered a powerful pattern within myself: my self-defence mechanism of apathy. I realised I had grown apathetic to parts of my life.
That week also coincided with the funeral of our dear friend Tom. Being present at his farewell left me raw and connected to my emotions. Yet on the table, my body felt solid, almost immovable. Over the years, I’ve grown still — apathetic — as though my mind has been dragging my body through life. I blame the speed of modern living: the faster and busier life becomes, the more apathetic I seem to grow.
Part of MER therapy involves myofascial unwinding, a natural process of release and integration. But my body couldn’t unwind. I love stillness, but this had become a stillness like that of a cemetery — a stark image, as only days before, on Tuesday 23rd September, I had stood at Tom’s funeral. Lying there, I felt horizontal, just as our beautiful friend was — except I am still alive, though I felt dead inside.
I couldn’t unwind. It may take several — perhaps many — MER sessions, or other therapies, to bring my body back to life, to reconnect and integrate body, mind, and soul.