08/12/2025
Before anyone starts, this isn’t a pity post! It’s actually quite the opposite.
I am so busy in business at the minute and throwing myself into that to avoid the noise in my head! Filling my energy cup with my clients and trying to help them as much as possible!
But in turn, I have completely disconnected.
Sooooo much has changed for me in the past 2 months and I have also completely ignored that and telling my friends I am fine. The reason I do that is because it is easier to say that than to deal with judgement or unwanted opinions. I also have the massive sense of burdening those around me with my problems when everyone is going through their own storm.
However, no matter what I have going on, I always want people to reach out to me and today I did that almost unknowingly!
I spoke with a friend today who truly made me think about past/present and future me! Who I was/am and going to be!
We connected so many dots that I truly ignored for YEARS! But she shone such a bright light to the fact I’m not doing so great right now! But she did this in such a non judgemental, kind way!
She demanded I bought a journal and pen, go to a coffee shop and just WRITE.
So I do just that, I ditched the gym for coffee and spent 1 hour writing over 10 pages of feelings and releasing some thoughts! Some thoughts! I have many books and pages to wade through this internal craic just yet!
But today I started, I already feel so much relief and readiness for the coming weeks.
I am no longer in that victim mode that didn’t serve me at all!
Now, I take action to reduce stress, attack personal life and also find me again! A newer me that is not the Marina who lives in Qatar.
I still connect and compare to that version but my life and surroundings are SO different now.
Like I said this isn’t a pity post, it’s a post to remind you to look after you before you crash and burn. The only person suffering is you! Journaling always helps but I find I push against it as I don’t want those thoughts and feelings to rise.
But you know what, it was the best thing I could have done and already looking forward to my next coffee shop journaling session!