21/01/2026
I thought I was healing my nervous system, but I actually just put my fire out. 🔥
Living life in the “fast lane”, the constant doing, the lack of balance, & living out of alignment, made my body go into a state of total shutdown. I ended up in the hospital experiencing intense pain & worsening symptoms. My system had reached its limit & simply turned the lights out to protect itself.
So when I took a step back to focus on healing & balancing my nervous system, I swung the pendulum as far as it would go the other way.
I chose everything slow. I chose everything quiet.
I leaned so hard into rest that I accidentally became stagnant.
It wasn’t until a questionnaire during my Yoga Teacher Training that the lightbulb finally went off.
The results showed I was significantly lacking in the fire element. While I was busy trying to re-regulate & stay calm, I had lost my spark.
I felt heavy. I felt a bit gray.
I had balanced the scales, but then I let them tip too far into the shadows.
Ayurveda reminds us that we are made of all five elements (Earth, Water, Fire, Air, & Ether), & true health is the dance between them. I realized that for me, regulation doesn’t always mean a weighted blanket & a cup of herbal tea.
Sometimes, regulation looks like a sweaty strength session to feel my own power. A kitchen dance party where I’m being completely ridiculous. Dynamic movement that makes my heart beat a little faster. Play, silliness, & heat.
Healing isn’t just about slowing down; it’s about coming back to life.
Have you ever leaned so far into resting that you felt like you lost your spark?
Sometimes I think it’s a necessary part of the journey, it’s when we feel like we’ve been buried that I fact we’ve actually been planted- these darker slower times are when we deepen and strengthen our roots.