D&T Hutch

09/02/2023

22/12/2022

Some of us feel lonely at our core.

Like there is an emptiness living within us.
Constantly wishing for more.

We may not be alone, but we still feel lonely.

Almost like we somehow never belonged.

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I speak for the many of us who went through childhood emotional neglect.

Going through a lifetime of not feeling loved or understood.

It may not have been something particular that happened to us, but perhaps something that we needed but never received.

Such as the love of a parent who was secure and steadfast.

Emotionally available and present, helping us to feel like we matter and they cared.

And maybe this neglect was unintentional.

Maybe it was culture, a different love language, or that they were just too busy at times...

Maybe they were suffering, who in their hurt just couldn't be there.

For some of us, there was indeed something that happened.

Like losing a parent when you were young, just like I did.

Maybe there was also a divorce or seperation, that you could not understand as a kid.

But whatever it is, here are the remnants.

Us feeling empty, and us still stuck with a missing need.

A yet unfulfilled sense of love and connection, and it's such an empty feeling indeed.

And to you out there experiencing this, I hope you do get to find healing.

But from someone who experienced depression and borderline personality disorder as a child, I hope to tell you this.

That this empty feeling won't remain there forever.

You will find the love and connection you always craved for.

But first you need to believe that what happened was not your fault.

And that you always deserved to be loved too.

Just like I did.

Take care,
Hernping

P. S. I miss you mom.

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21/12/2022

ℹ️🌿 THE FLASHBACKS YOU CAN'T SEE |

Not every experience can be understood. Not every emotion can be put into words. Not every flashback can be seen.

Read full article:
https://www.aptsda.org/single-post/The-Flashbacks-You-Cant-See

Image credit: Lilly Hope Lucario Healing From Complex Trauma and Ptsd/cptsd

17/12/2022

Amen