27/09/2025
👯At 19, I thought I was just a bit of a party girl.
⚠️But now looking back and extensively researching and writing my book. I can now see I was self-medicating an already hormonally sensitive, dysregulated nervous system - I didn’t even know existed as unrecognised PMDD, complex trauma and neurodivergence!
⚠️My drinking patterns weren’t random!
🧠They peaked around certain times of my cycle. When oestrogen was rising, GABA was dropping and my system felt wired, restless, overstimulated.
🧐 I wasn’t just drinking for fun, I was subconsciously drinking for relief. To calm my body and to try to quiet my hyperactive mind!
⚠️What I didn’t know back then.
🧠Oestrogen increases dopamine, making substances feel more rewarding (Becker & Koob, 2016)
🧠GABA drops premenstrually, reducing our natural calming mechanisms (Epperson et al., 2002)
🧠And progesterone - especially its calming metabolite, allopregnanolone can actually blunt addiction risk by supporting GABA and dulling the brain’s reward response (Evans & Foltin, 2010; Sofuoglu et al., 2002)
This wasn’t (just) rebellion! - although I am rebellious 😉
It was also an (unconscious) attempt to self regulate and calm my already sensitive nervous system.
And the more I learn, the more compassion I have for my younger self.
If this resonates, know this.
So when oestrogen is high and GABA is low, impulse control weakens.
This isn’t just a matter of willpower - it’s about biochemistry.
Research shows that ovarian hormones influence addictive behaviour in women, and progesterone may even reduce relapse risk for some substances (Moran-Santa Maria et al., 2014; Psychology Today, 2023).
We need to talk about this more - especially for sensitive women.
There’s science now to back what many of us have lived and this needs to be urgently understood through a new trauma informed nervous system sensitivity lens.
Let me know if this resonates with you 💕 we need to understand this for our daughters also.
Paula 🫶