08/02/2026
Maybe you can relate to the ripples beyond the surface:
Under the ripples of the surface, there is movement that goes far deeper, not stillness but waves, as I notice my own nervous system rippling with all the things that need to be done ahead of giving my talk tomorrow.
Satnav, speech cards, outfit, what time do I need to leave (early.. early!), what needs to happen to ensure everything is sorted as I'll be out later than normal - I am both excited and this evening a little nervous about a day out of my normal practice life tomorrow!
These feelings can both exist together, entwined with wanting to do a good job, the excitement of meeting new people, being "on" - it's a strange thing speaking in front of people, delivering, and so many of us do this as part of our jobs, but we don't often talk about what it feels like.
I think it's important to share, and maybe it will help someone else to know that it's okay to feel all these things together.