18/03/2026
With great Power and influence comes great responsibility and with this i truly believe these words and believe i live by them.
It makes it difficult being that person of integrity for not just yourself but family members/ close ones that I hold to a standard, as I hold myself to that same standard. This is where you, if you're a person like me, will find conflict. Because not everyone can stare into the chasm of truth and point out when things are out of alignment. It makes moving on from experiences challenging and you find yourself often re-visiting those experiences over and over in your life until you find the peace and acceptance you've been searching for.
I often talk about journalling and leaning into healing as I share my own healing journey openly.. and i share my journey, to take away the stigma.. and if it creates inclusivity.. for others to not feel so alone in theirs... then my work is done 🙏✨️
To be a spiritual seer does not make me exempt from healing and experiencing life traumas... in fact it's often those experiences that create the seer, you can be born with gifts .. but it's your life experiences that shape the type of seer you become. I am a pretty hard and stubborn learner when it comes to my own healing path. Learning emotional intelligence that was never taught or had a true healthy representation of what it looks like, can feel like your feeling your way in the dark. Running your fingers over rubble and sharp bits of glass with sometimes a small reflection of light to come in to help you realise you are making progress... but it is really an act of faith and trust... which can be especially trying when you have experienced a life where trust was abused and abandoned... So, you create a path to pave the way of the person you wish to be and how you believe you deserve to feel... one small step at a time... moving away from that old toxic communication you may have heard 'why do you always live in the past?'
'Why can't you just let it go?'
'Why do you always have to bring that up!?'
'You're over sensitive'
All quotes of course holding no accountability of actions.. but casting blame to the person who feels. It's an easy get out of responsibility isn't it..?
But no one escapes that responsibility really. It's the thing that wakes the person up in the night, why they feel restless, unsatisfied with life, unable to commit or connect to others for the long term, to be truly personally intimate with another.. it will create addiction in career, food, drugs, alcohol or relationships.. that quick fix.. some may want to run away... that shadow always comes calling when you least expect it... it never rests... it's a creativity blocker! And i have experience in all of these. I was the best runner from my own shadow.. I almost fooled myself that I could carry on my work without shining a light on myself.. but if you want to excel in life.. the closer you get to the light... the more it highlights your shadows...
I love seeing in this era about leaning into that space. Refusing to be the person to pass that old outdated emotional block to our children. It stops here. With us.. to create a new line of emotional liberty... what amazing heights in life you can reach to not be held back by others feelings of limitations and oppression 🙏✨️🙌
Making decisions in every area of your life that you truly want and feel safe to be... what a feeling! Not characterised by others expectation... and only living by your own.... if not now, when? If not you, who?
It may mean cutting off everyone from your past while you do this work..
Love and loyalty to blood and DNA can be layered, but it can also be codependent and harmful, and others experiences can differ from yours and it doesn't mean you're right and they are wrong.. it's just different... it may be that you are the only 'awake' person in your circle.. that's also orchestrated for a reason.. so it's OK to love from a distance whilst you recentre yourself and your care.. after that you can make your decision of how you wish to see the role you play in their lives.... you may surprise yourself and realise that your happy and content to remain a distant loved one.
Over the years I've started journals, never really knowing how to begin, it would be fragmented, often met with drawings, moments of clarity.. but never really full in. All very 2d.. it was a start.. Now at 40... I feel ready.
This is my Book of Shadows.. but not the shadows of witchcraft as one would imagine, my 17 year old self would relish at the thought 🤗⭐️
It's actually more of a book of light ✨️ finally being in a space where you can feel safe enough with your inner child to write your story.. not a triggered mind set... or putting pen to paper in a need to feel seen and heard...but where you can take the hand of your inner child and tell them, it's safe to talk now... what a feeling that already holds...
Healing is a journey... it can be incredibly messy and there is no strait lines. I promise You WILL stumble and fall over numerous of times. You WILL feel the fool, you WILL feel exhausted, manipulated and confused.. and utterly lost for the most part... but.. in time... what you wouldn't expect to notice... it's the quiet that tiptoes into your life... quiet in your mind, lightness in your chest. No tight knots in your tummy. Feeling softness in your spine... it begins there... then you notice time, finding time that is finding you.. in stillness. Not wanting outside noise. Being totally content with just being in the moment.
That is what it is all worth... it may take time to find your people... and that's all orchestrated too... it is a gift 🙏
so, if you too are on your own healing journey and discovering new tools.
I see you 🙏🙌✨️ I celebrate you and all the generations after you are so very grateful 🙏
Keep going ✨️
I'll see you on your path, for I'm traveling it too ⭐️🙏✨️
So, i invite in this moment to please post or tag a healer or activity that you have personally used, whether that be a nutritionist, hypnotherapist, somatic, breathwork, sound therapy, Divine feminine or Divine masculine motivational leaders and speakers, yoga instructors or anything else that has assisted on your journey of healing.
I am looking for real world shadow workers.
Not ego driven services ... there is a difference ✨️
~ Roxanne (or Rocky as my younger self was known).
