17/07/2021
I've stopped teaching yoga.
No, this isn't a post about how I am still teaching yoga but calling mindful movement or embodied flow.
I've really stopped. I have two more classes with existing students to complete, some refunds to process, then it's done.
There are several reasons, all intertwined. The most pressing is financial. Even before the pandemic, I made just enough to live on. I was never going to own a property, or have savings. I lived with baited breath as someone not renewing a pass when I forecast meant problems paying the water bill. This way of life, so normal for many people, is exhausting.
The pandemic has crucified my business. Even with a core group of committed and wonderful online students, I needed to rely on a top up from Universal Credit to survive financially. And although restrictions are meant to lifting, my business and the yoga industry have changed so much, I don't see things going back to the way before.
I needed to get a job, and I have done. It's 5 days a week on a major transformation programme, and I have a senior and well paid role. Thank God for that and my amazing consulting colleagues from the past decade or so who reached out to help me when I needed it. Thank you.
But I can't do that and teach classes. What you see as students is just the tip of the iceberg: you don't see all the admin, prep, creation and marketing that goes on in the background. It takes more time to do this than turn up to class. I know many teachers who don't prep, they just rock up and churn out the same old stuff again and again - but that is not the kind of teacher I want to be.
My mum died in January from a stroke and I think from that moment I knew everything would change this year. It has been emotionally and physically exhausting and I crave some normality: getting my evenings and weekends back, having a stable income, even buying a property. These were things I never thought I'd have again. But now I can, and do.
There are many ways to teach the principles I work with, and group yoga classes are probably one of the least effective methods. I'm interested in embodiment, regulation, connection and how that affects how we live and work. I'm finding that I can teach this AT WORK, funnily enough, guiding my team and senior executives alike: holding space for them, encouraging regulation and checking in with each other.
Maybe one day there will be another small business looking at coaching and embodied leadership training.
But until then, I'll keep teaching the important things, just in a different way.
If you have any questions about your pass or refunds, please contact me directly.