05/12/2025
Sharing a snippet from the book 👀
CHAPTER 32
WHEN THE SOUL OUTGROWS ITS CONTAINER
There is a very particular ache that settles within you when your soul begins to outgrow the life you’re living, yet nothing in your physical reality has shifted to reflect that inner expansion. It’s not depression, laziness, or ingratitude. It’s something deeper, something far more spiritual, and it creeps in quietly long before the external world starts to rearrange itself.
This is the space I’ve been writing from recently: the space between the life I have and the life I know I’m meant for. It’s the strange suffocation that happens when your soul is rising and your circumstances aren’t moving with it.
For me, this phase showed up in the most ordinary moments: cleaning the kitchen for the third time, wiping crumbs from the floor, dealing with twin arguments, endlessly tidying, folding laundry, and feeling the constant pull of responsibility on my energy. On the surface, life looked “normal,” but inside, I felt like I was walking around in a version of reality that didn’t fit me anymore.
It’s a surreal disconnection - knowing who you are spiritually, feeling the depth of your gifts, your purpose, your power… and yet still living inside a container that is far too small for you. It’s like having a whole galaxy inside you while living a day-to-day loop that feels heavy, repetitive, and flat.
I found myself waking each morning feeling spiritually starved. Not because I wasn’t doing my work - I still had clients, healings, and sessions that moved people deeply, but because something inside me had shifted. The things that used to light me up began feeling muted, and the life around me felt louder and more overwhelming than ever.
It wasn’t that I didn’t love my children or appreciate my home. It was that my soul had moved on before my life had. There’s a difference.
When your soul begins rising to a new level of consciousness, your emotional landscape becomes the first place it shows. You feel bored, restless, irritable, disconnected, overstimulated, numb, and almost haunted by a quiet knowing that says, “You’re not meant to stay here.”
You feel too big for your current life, like the walls around you are pressing in, and like the routines you once coped with suddenly feel unbearable.
