02/03/2026
I turn 40 in 167 days.
Im making changes. Real ones.
But something interesting happens when you start making positive changes.
Your brain and your heart might be completely on board with it… but your body sometimes isn’t.
It remembers the past, the times you tried something new and it didn’t work out. When you trusted something and it hurt.
So when you start shifting your life, even in good ways, the body sometimes goes into a kind of quiet resistance.
It’s not trying to sabotage you.
It’s trying to protect you.
I met someone and fell in love — which sounds amazing, but anyone who’s ever fallen for someone will know it completely disrupts your nervous system at first. Suddenly there’s vulnerability, uncertainty, emotional exposure.
Tomorrow I start pretty strict fitness journey. I want to change my body before I turn 40. I want to feel stronger, healthier, more in control of myself.
My brain knows these are good things.
But my body is still catching up.
Because it doesn’t know the outcome yet.
It’s almost like the body looks back through your history and says,
“Hmm… last time we did something like this it didn’t go that well. Maybe we should just leave things the way they are.”
And the way the body often communicates that is through symptoms.
Little signals. Random things.
My eye swelling up the other week, which emotionally translates to seeing your future change. My elbow suddenly in agony last night as I look through the fitness plan, elbow relates to transition.
No reason. Just pain appearing out of nowhere.
My body pushing back, because it’s unfamiliar.
Not because the change is wrong.
Growth can feel uncomfortable
But that doesn’t mean you stop.
167 days until I’m 40.
And I’m teaching my body that the future I’m creating is safe to walk into.
What’s your body telling you?