07/08/2023
Here’s a heartfelt and vulnerable long one for you:
As my Lebanon trip nears its end I notice that I got the chance to physically and emotionally revisit parts within myself that I thought I had lost in heartbreak over the last years.
They say that making it into your 30s unharmed is unlikely; but I caught myself saying to a friend the other day:
Ive been married, and divorced, I survived one of history’s biggest nonnuclear explosions, and a world wide pandemic stuck in India, studied at a top tier university, worked at a top tier job, became a yoga teacher, started a business and traveled to opposite sides of the world all before my 32nd birthday.
As you might expect, I am extremely disillusioned by the world, it’s dangerous and cut throat, but I am not bitter. I’m actually all the more excited and in love with the future.
Because I have been initiated early on to the paradox that is living fully, authentically and wholeheartedly, which entails positives and negatives.
To my beautiful surprise, heartbreak no matter what form or shape or size it comes in is true and real and will always be there. However, to heal is to acknowledge the mere pain of being human, to sit where it is sore and mend the pieces, not to pretend that it doesn’t fu***ng hurt most days, to watch life take away people we love, things we are attached to and ideas we believe. To sit with it all and still manage to go on.
So look to friends, family and teachers, mentors and allies. Beautiful projects and places, wonderful ideas and arts, coffee and tea and music are important.
We all need people on our team, but the one and only absolution is that we are ALONE - TOGETHER, which means we feel and experience and think ALONE, but everyone else does too.
So, honor yourself, live wholeheartedly and when it hurts feel it, allow it and remember this is your journey, alone and with all of us too.