14/08/2025
A letter to my Ozzie.
On the 3rd of March 2011 you burst into my life with so much joy, enthusiasm and relentless energy. Do you remember the cuddles on the couch we shared on your very first night? I fell head over heels for you way more than any man in my life. I was totally and utterly besotted with you.
As the months progressed we learned about one another, you helped me to see that I was in a very toxic and abusive relationship, you helped me and gave me the strength to get out, to find a safer place, you will never know how much that meant to me. In our new safe place, just the two of us, you comforted me while I healed from the trauma, you never left my side, we created an unbreakable bond.
We moved countries together and moved house several times, and each time getting each other through the overwhelm of change. You were my anchor, you were what kept me grounded. Remember the first few trips to the beach in Co.Clare? You adored running like a lunatic on the beach, excited to have sand between your paws. Watching you brought me so much joy that’s it’s impossible to articulate.
Do you remember when I was studying canine behaviour and I was doing lots of fun training sessions with you? I think your favourite was when you were learning to spin around, you spun so fast I thought you were going to topple over ha! You were crazy for those hot dog treats.
I remember all your funny nicknames do you? Oz, Ozward, Ozmosis, Bob. All of those are so special to me, and I know they are to you. The last 4 weeks of your life you spent them licking the tears off my face, nudging me, cuddling into me because I was going through the worst break up of my life. And then you died, you left me, no warning, I was so angry, so heartbroken, I couldn’t function in life. Those 8 and a half years we shared together were everything to me and more.
Oz, I want you to know that even though it took me 3 years, I was finally able to remember our entire relationship, I got help, I worked hard to walk through the trauma and grief. Now being able to remember and access memories from the very full and whole relationship we shared is the biggest way I honour your memory.
Love Mom ❤️
