24/05/2020
A Few Weeks Ago I Came Across A Really Low Path On My Journey, Even While Watching Sunsets In The Middle Of The Mountains Surrounded By BEAUTY & Smiled So Brightly. I Was Still Not Feeling It, Like I Use Too... 🙏🏻
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It Wasn’t There! It Was Beautiful And For Moments I’d Feel Good And Then It Was Zapped From Me, I Tried And Just Felt So So Numb, Ungrateful And At Times I Wished I Could Just Be A Wild Animal So I Wouldn’t Have To Be Here, So I Wouldn’t Have To Deal With What Was Happening. “Not the worst thoughts to have I’ll admit, wild animal sounds very appealing still.”
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My Life Changed Drastically - With All The Changes Happening And Just Adapting To It All🌍
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Losing Parts Of Me Day By Day, Ignoring It All, Pretending To Be Fine, Talking To Nobody, Hiding Everything, My Inside Voice Screaming For HELP! I Finally Gave In To My TRUEST SELF & Allowed Myself To Be Unhappy, Unmotivated, Numb, Drained From The Crown Of My Head To The Tips Of My Toes (Literally Dragging My Physical Body Around) We All Know The Term And Label It As Depression ✨
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Not My First Dose, The Highest Dose In A LONG TIME And Back Then It Was Just NORMAL Everyday Life!✨
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I Literally Had To Change Everything And I Had To Cancel EVERYTHING! As I Couldn’t Give Anything, I Hadn’t A SINGLE BIT OF LOVE OR ENERGY WITHIN ME TO GIVE! Nothing It Was Just ZAPPED!✨
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I’m Writing This Post To Just Let Humans Know, Yes! This Does Happen To Even The Most Positive Humans On The Planet Even The Ones That Have Trained In Such Areas Like Myself & Who Know About “Doing The Work” - “Diving Deep” - “Listening To Your Inside Voice” I Have Spoke Them Words And I Did Just EAT Them ✨
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Inside Voice Muted!🤐 Until I Couldn’t Actually Handle The Affect It Was Having On Me Anymore! So I Take My Own Advice As If I Was A Client, Lets Just Stop And HEAL!
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“Practice What You Preach Shauna”..............................................................
I Am Human! I Am Just The Same As All Humans On This Planet As Of Any Of You Reading This Post - Life Is A Struggle For Us All At Times, Even Those “Happy People” 🌸
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Today I Am Feeling So Gifted With Another Low Experience Under My Belt - ✨