25/02/2023
Saturday: date afternoon to the market, dutch 'appeltaart' with my love π, preparations.... and choosing art.
Feeling so very blessed ππβ€οΈπβ€οΈ - to have come this far in our secondary infertility journey of 12 years. For 14 years we have been incredibly blessed with our gorgeous son, inside and out, Luke. The love he has shown me the past months has blown me away. He is a kind hearted, funny and sarcastic, wonderful young gentleman who makes us so very proud. Life will change the coming weeks - the 3 of us are very excited... and can still hardly believe it.
The mystery of our long-standing infertility was solved by the wonderful doctors at - the solution was quite straightforward - doc said try this for 10 days and then we hope for Bingo with our very last embryo: I was to take a 10 day antibiotic treatment for an infection they found in the lining of my womb - an infection that comes about in women who have had a caesarean or contraceptive coil/device. We got Bingo!
I remain committed to openly talk about the subject of motherhood, grief and infertility, because I know there are so many people who suffer in this space.... indescribable grief from baby/child loss, struggles with miscarriage, a long-standing desire to be a mother, challenges conceiving, not having known your mother, or feeling judged for not wanting to be a mother. By talking I believe we can help others.
To be listened to and to be heard is one of the greatest gifts we can receive from another human being. I am forever grateful to Jan Devyver, a psychologist at university hospital Antwerp who listened and encouraged us to have hope and to try again, without whom we would never have stepped back on the IVF train. His words will stay with me forever: "You are in the best country in the world for treatment, and I want you to look back in one year's time and be able to say say you tried everything you could" - to have closure one way or another.
Thank you Jan, thank you Dr. Christophe Blockeel and the entire team π