23/10/2023
I've learnt some Hebrew words in the last 2 weeks that I wish I didn't have to know:
חוטפים kidnappees
טֶבַח massacre
לַעֲנוֹת torture
הִסתַנְנוּת infiltration
אשמה blame
Hard words that no-one should have to add to their daily vocabulary, but I hear these words not just from the news, but also from my patients, who have lost loved ones, and those who still don't know the fate of theirs, and then those that are scared, angry, in shutdown, in confusion, grieving.
I stay grounded.
I stay centred.
I give love to each and every one of them, knowing maybe a little time in my clinic will give them some respite from the days before and the days still to come.
I wear bright colours whilst most people around me wear black.
I give hugs where they are accepted and happily accept them back.
I put my hands on my patients' chests, and they cry freely, because they have a safe space to do it.
I remind myself of love, and to love myself and others, no matter if a stranger or a friend.
I take deep meaningful breaths when I need to.
Its a strange sensation - love and fear together - but I breath into it and release the tension when and where I can, and when I cant, I give that emotion the space to be, to respect the emotion rather than ignore it or fight its presence.
But I'm a bit tired, mainly of the international stupidity that I see unfolding in protests around the world and partly also very much of the unknown in the days and the weeks to come.
So i'm giving some of my time to a voluntary set up for those beautiful kids that survived the SuperNova Festival,
all they wanted to do was dance and love,
instead they were bombarded with bullets and grenades like, well I dont know what like, its just monstrous to even try and compare it to something we know of right?.............can you compare it with anything that you know of??? I really hope you cant.
doing this work for them feels good - to be part of a healing circle of manual therapists and trauma therapists, the work we and they are doing is beautiful, the main goal being to give these kids a bit of life back before the long therapy road ahead, and this gives me some hope, and hope can spread a long way if you try.
And the hope isn't just there.
This beautiful nation stepped up within 24 hours of this ONGOING atrocity to care for and support the thousands of people terrified, traumatised and grieving.
No help from the government.
Just people like you and me that know what is the right thing to do for their terrified neighbour and child.
I wish it wasn't needed, but I'm happy we put it in place to exist.
I just wish it was not a necessity.
So to anyone waving a random flag against Israel on your weekend,
I pity you,
I really do.
Not to even condone this massacre before you protest is painful, and pathetic.
May you never have to experience what we are experiencing right now.
Maybe read a history book, get a bit more up to date on politics in the Middle East (all countries in uproar against the apparent inhumane treatment by Israel - seriously???? - are renowned for their inhumane treatment of their own citizens!!)
then re-read/watch what happened on 7.10.23 and you'll know these aren't freedom fighters, they don't give a sh*t about Gazan people - they are just monsters, pure evil.
I dare you to see what we have unfortunately all seen on social media.
I dare you to watch, and stay watching and keep your "balanced opinion" whilst you see people being randomly executed in their homes
watch terrified kids hiding from rampaging terrrorists in dumpsters surrounded by dead bodies of their friends
Then I dare you to talk to survivors today and hear their fear still acutely painfully present.
I dare you to speak out against what is happening here.
I dare you to stand up for the right thing, instead of sitting on your sofa all comfy in England and Europe.
This is a part of the history of this country that should never have to be written but it is etched on our minds and souls now forever.
And you should care about this new history too
IT AFFECTS ALL OF US.
You are a fool if you think it doesn't
While I can, I'm trying to be part of the good fight and support those that need us right now, its not much but its the best I can do.
Take a breathe
Give some love
Embrace those you love
Do the right thing