14/01/2024
My Vision Diary:
I was trying to get better eyesight from many years and mostly focussing on physical exercises, but was struggling to get clear flashes and permanent relaxation. Deep inside, I knew there was something stopping me from getting my eyesight clear and putting off glasses makes me fear uncomfortable as I feel exposed to people whom I didn’t want to face, whether it was bullying colleagues, racist teachers and I was surrounded by a lot of people who didn’t appreciate my presence. I was comfortable and used to feel safe in isolation. My thought pattern was like a boy who wanted to hide himself from such people. At certain points of my life, I was so frustrated by my presence among them that I wanted some superpower to be invisible to them. Like the story of Dr Griffin, who invented a magical drug and on consuming it, he became invisible. He used to roam invisible on streets and stores visiting a lot of people without their knowledge. I wanted to be among people invisible and learn what they think about me and their views and plans about me. This thinking was due to fear of people which developed in 2 years due to a lot of bullying and disliking. This anxiety and fear was programmed into me for many years, though later, I got rid of a lot of anxiety and panic as I got some fresh air when I got some recognition by fighting back and not tolerating bu****it in my life.
So I was trying to clear my eyesight, but subconsciously I was programmed to not face people, not having eye contacts and the best way to stay away from people was to blur my eyesight. You can say my inner vision was blurred and it manifested in my outer vision ie eyesight being blur. And also, I was procrastinating doing eye exercises and didn’t really wanted to see clear. So, now I can accept why it took me years to getting relaxation and better vision. I know Bates method from more than 10 years but got temporary improvements. I was doing exercises right as sometimes I was getting crystal clear flashes of vision. But I was skipping those relaxation practices for months. When you are afraid of of facing the world you constrict yourself you want to be isolated and it is manifested by constricting your vision.
I interviewed a friend who is having very less friend circle and also myopic. She said that my brother told me you always choose to run away from your problems but it will only make them worse if you keep running from them. I realised that I was also kind of running away or more precisely not acknowledging them so that I don’t have to take any action. Sometimes, when I saw people in problems I used to wonder well I don’t have such kind of problems in my life. Whereas in real, I was never acknowledging them and doing nothing about them. As Jacob Liberman says in his book “Take off your glasses and see”, glasses keep your vision locked in fear and anxiety and shapes the events in such a way that you want to remain disconnected and wear the glasses. This is the case with most of myopic people. Most of them are actually not interested in seeing from naked eyes just because they don’t want to connect to life. They may find it boring, unnecessary, are secretly frightful of the world and elude themselves feeling safe in that cage. So, if you have dared to clear your vision and heal your personality, you should also work on those suppressed fears and anxieties using some transformation therapies like Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) or other healing techniques. Those who have tasted the freedom of seeing without those crutches on their eyes, experienced the intensity of vibrant colours will want it more and eventually get their vision cleared.
People who want to embark on this journey are usually tired of being disconnected of their source, had some adventurous experience, or have tasted courageous energy and they subconsciously realise how glasses are interfering with their magnificent source of energy.
Good luck to all those want to get rid of their anxieties, discomfort and want to be connected to their body and their surroundings.
If you want to have EFT sessions, I have to complete some case studies and can provide it at no cost to first 5 people who approach me.
Love
Ajmer
