06/02/2025
Mai Badal Gayi Hu ?
Umr ke is padhav par jab mai peeche mudh ke dekhti hu toa khud ko bohot badlaa hua sa paati hun . Jab koi waqt ki tehni par atkti hui patang mujhe mere bachpan ki aur le jaati hai toa lagta hai ki abha mere saath chalte chalte apni pehchaan banate kitna kuch peeche chodh aayi hai . Apna shehar , school ki road ke wo gulmohar ke pedh , ghar ka barmadaa , sookhe patto se banaye ghar aur maa ke hath ki churi . Sab Aise choota hai ki kuch bhi pakadh mei nahi ataa . Jab koi mere shehar ka shaks mere samne aa jata hai toa kabhi mai un purani galiyon mei ek phera laga aati hu . Yaad ataa hai dhup mei apni choti si manji par let kar amrood khana , eclairs toffee ke bikhare rapper yaad aate hai , bhari garmi mei ek ganne ke juice ke glass ko peene ki chah mei ghar se dur tak ka safar yaad aata hai . Mai jab bhi kisi ki baato mei dilli shehar ki sair par nikalti hu toa lagta hai jaise yeh koi aur hai jo na jaane kya khojti rahi hai jo isse delhi jaise shehar mei bhi nahi mila aur use khojte khojte yeh ek naye shehar aa gayi .umr ke sath sab badla magar meri khoj aur bechaini wahi rahi .
Mere dost kehte hai ki tum kitna badal gayi ho kaha hai wo ladki jise hum jante the ? Lagta hi nahi ki tum abha ho ! Mai fir puchti Hu ki aisa kya hai ? Kya badal gaya hai ? Wo kehte hai khubsurat ho gayi ho , savar gayi ho , thodi chup rehti ho , zabaan mein urdu ka zaika milta hai, soch ke baat karti ho ! Kuch toa hai iss nayi abha mei jise hum nahi jante . Mai kehti hu pata nahi rang roop aur yowan ke siwa kya badla hai , mai toa wahi hu jo mujhe sab kehte the bhakti atmaa . Jab gatherings mei akele ek kone mei baith jaya karti thi , class mei 40 ki bheedh mei ek bhi dost nahi hota tha , jab akele cp ke Barakhamba ke kitne chakar laga leti thi , metro mei ghanto akele safar karti thi , ek baar zid mei akele hi vaishnodevi ki yatra bhi kar aayi thi , ab wahi abha tumhe cafes mei akele coffee ka cup hath mei liye mil jayegi , ghar mei akele saara din apne aap mei akele bhatkte mil jayegi , raat ke andhere mei gaadi se tanha sadke naapti mil jayegi . Sach maano kuch bhi nahi badla mera akelapan meri bechaini umr ke sath aur badh rahi hai .