15/09/2020
Exactly this time last year, I was in Scotland on a birthday trip and hopeful for the year ahead -- a year older, a new decade, and a gap year ahead of me. A whole lot of plans and projects and opportunities and what ifs and uncertainty, but all in the best possible way.
This year was supposed to be monumental.
Then October came and with it the Lebanese revolution.
Then Covid happened and with it a global-wide pause button on life as we knew it.
Then an economic crisis unlike any other.
Then August 4th.
This year, I have felt hopeful, passionate, inspired, thrilled, blessed, grateful, blissful, content, alive, aligned.
This year, I have felt disappointed, frustrated, shame, anxiety, hopeless, confused, lost, aimless, insecure, insignificant.
This year has been a rollercoaster of emotions -- all consuming with the highs being very high and the lows being very low.
But this year, more than any other year, I've experienced the impermanence of life.
I've experienced how undoubtedly connected we all are.
How every moment and thought and emotion is intertwined.
How a single moment can change the course of your life -- forever.
This year has taught me love.
It has taught me to love without judgement.
To love with understanding.
With compassion.
With kindness.
My self.
And in turn my loved ones.
And in turn my/our world.
