25/11/2025
How I’ll be 40 for at least the 3rd year in a row.
I’ve just turned 40, but it doesn’t feel any different than last year…
Or the year before that...
When my life suddenly took a full 180 a few years ago, I already felt 40 back then 😁
This last year has expanded me in many ways ❤️
(But I’ll admit - there were a lot of contractions too..😅)
The clients who came into my practice in Vilnius…
I’d put the kettle on for tea, glance out the window to see if they were coming...
The memories they pulled out from behind old curtains, the hidden hurts.
Tears sliding down their faces, along their necks… Like long-blocked rivers finding their way again, washing out the old waters so something fresher, lighter could finally flow at a balanced rythm.
When they said:
“I didn’t realise this had such an impact on me…”
“I’ve never shared this with anyone before...”
“I don’t have the topic yet, but I know I want to come again.”
I knew it was working.
I had a purpose.
There's meaning 🫀
Then came the summer holiday in Spain… which quickly transformed into Life in Spain ☺️
The inner turbulence of deciding to leave our first family home, the one we designed with love...
(But if I could do that, I can do anything now 🤣)
The sun here seems to have known this and it's always present. The blue sky, lush green and flowers tumbling over fences - they are all like a sweet lullaby making it easy to be ❤️ (Even the dogs here seem to be more relaxed, friendly, free..:)
But one of the hardest realisations this year was that life is imperfect (I know - daaaaa... 🙄).
But for most of my life I’ve been striving to learn, understand, improve, change, act on inspiration.
I had this belief that accepting life as it is = giving up, and this year showed me otherwise:
..As a parent, you can’t always be ready for tantrums, screaming, hitting…
And then on other days you look at those soft, puffy cheeks and think they’re the sweetest, most precious thing you want to fall asleep next to 🥹
..After more than a decade in a relationship, you begin to understand that love changes shape and it needs you watering it, cutting the dry bits, moving the pot more to the sun. This is new to me.
The same as being all things at once - therapist, coach, marketer, salesperson, customer support, social media person.
Realizing that growing a business means learning so many new things (or finding the right partners). The choices are endless, so again you need to sift through and choose what feels right at that moment without full knowledge.
And in the middle of all this beautiful chaos, what stood out for me was...
Plunging into the damn cold lake water back at home - I can’t always wait for the perfect setup!
Opening the car windows on driving back and sticking my hand out to feel the raindrops and the wind 🌬️
And most of all - running through the sprinklers watering the grass at night, back and forth✨
Through the mist...
The magic! ✨
