24/06/2025
This is me. Two years ago. On the 23rd of June, the night of San Juan. The tradition (which is originally Catalan) at San Juan is to go to the beach and celebrate the light with a group of friends and share a picnic and light. At midnight, you dip into the water, after having proclaimed what you are leaving behind and what you are stepping into in the new year.
At that time, two years ago, I felt miserable and lonely. I saw all these people on the beach, with their families or groups of friends, surrounded by light. And I walked down the boulevard feeling lonely, insignificant, unseen and really sad.
But also determined to change that situation. There and then, I adopted the mantra “I haven’t yet met all the people that I’m going to love”. It helped me through some tough times.
And now fast forward to yesterday. San Juan again. I found myself sitting on that same beach, feeling so blessed, rich and fortunate. Now I was one of those people sitting in a group, sharing food, wine and laughter.
When I look at the pictures that were taken last night, I see that the sad and hollow look in my eyes is gone. The smile on my face has been replaced by a heartfelt one and I feel so happy, grounded, calm, blessed, and grateful.
Little did I know at that time, that my mantra was so true. I did find new people. I am very blessed with a lot of lovely people in my life. I have loved a lot and I have been loved.
Over the past year, most of them stayed. Some left. But also, a whole new group entered. I met new people that I was going to love. In fact, all the people I was with yesterday, I didn’t know two years ago.
So, what I’m trying to say is: if you are out there, feeling lonely and sad: trust that there will be new, good things on the way. Trust that you will love and be loved again. Maybe not in the way you expect, and not by the people you expect.
Prioritise being happy. Prioritise doing nice things. Prioritise treating yourself like the Love of your Life. Then you will attract likeminded people and other circumstances. Of that, I am convinced. ♥️