03/08/2022
THAT FAMILIAR GUILT FEELING...
It was a rainy bank holiday and I had planned to catch up with work, considering we had no plans other than staying at home after a nice lunch.
Guess what, kids wanted to play with Mommy besides Daddy and didn't leave me alone for a minute.
I tried to escape upstairs a few times, but the constant muuuummyyyy loud call always came after me.
I came down after not being able to do anything productive 😟and would sit on the floor with both of the kids painting, constructing things, playing silly games and I felt myself fully present, at least most of the time.
But THAT familiar guilty feeling we all know about, kept coming and judging me for not either being fully there nor catching up with my work.
This inner battle in my mind kept going until I said to myself, it is enough!
I am enough! 💪
I am now here with my family. It is such a privilege we have kids, this free time to play and they really want to play with me; 🙏
and don't take me wrong, I thoroughly enjoy being with them and I end up being unable to swap that by any work stuff that is waiting for me, even if that means I will be stressed out at work in the coming days.
Is it easy? Absolutely not. 😅
It goes both ways - sometimes I dedicate more time and energy to work, and other times, to my family.
What I find the most important is to STOP my inner mind battle early enough and say to myself:
it is OK, now it is time for my family and be fully present, or now it is time to focus and to finish work. ☺🧘
And I accept that decision, and be at peace with myself...most of the times.
Where your mind goes, energy flows.
Have a lovely week! 🙂
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