28/11/2025
“I’m never joining a ceremony again!”
That’s the very first thing I said after my first ceremony with plant medicine.
If someone had told me back then that one day I, myself, would be hosting plant-medicine ceremonies, holding space for others to transform and heal, I would’ve laughed. Hard.
So what made me say “never again”?
• It was my first experience with psychedelics—and it stretched me far beyond what I believed was possible. I walked in naïvely thinking, “I did some experimenting with substances before… how different can it be?” The answer? Completely.
• Losing control shook me. I had done years of personal development, yet I never occurred to me how tightly I held onto control in every part of life. Feeling the raw power of nature and the universe—forces much bigger than me—was terrifying at first.
• I experienced ego death. That moment where your ego steps aside and you see yourself and your life from a much larger cosmic lens. Suddenly your biggest problems become incredible tiny. Your sense of “self” temporarily dissolves. And the question rises: Who am I without the roles, the expectations, the identity I cling to?
• As an HSP (highly sensitive person), the heightened perception, emotion, and intuition that plant medicine amplifies made everything even more intense.
So what made me do it again?!
• Integration. The ceremony didn’t finish when I opened my eyes. It unfolded for months afterward. Lessons resurfaced. Insights landed. Healing continued. It took almost a full year to truly understand what that one night had gifted me.
• I realized that what scared me most wasn’t “losing control.” It was fear itself. I feared fear. And was lacking trust, confidence and faith. That was the layer being shown to me. The only way I could learn that deeply was by experiencing it.
• The magnitude of the universe—the sensation of oneness—can’t be put into words. You have to feel it to understand it. After that night, the world never looked the same again. It awakened a belief in magic, synchronicity, and possibilities I hadn’t felt since childhood. There is so much more possible than we think!
• It transformed the way I use my senses. That deep sensitivity now helps me attune to people more intuitively in my work as a holistic therapist and spaceholder.
After a year of saying, “Never again,” I finally realized how much I had grown.
One ceremony did more for me than years of talking, forcing, or thinking ever could.
One ceremony changed my life.
One ceremony showed me truths I had been avoiding.
One ceremony pushed me far outside my comfort zone—exactly where healing usually begins.
Healing doesn’t happen by analyzing.
It happens by experiencing, feeling, reframing, releasing, and allowing something new to enter.
And the only reason I was able to have such a transformational journey—despite the intensity—was because I was guided by experienced facilitators who created a safe, grounded, supportive space. That made all the difference.
Now, years later I get to offer this gift to others. Hosting ceremonies, in a trustworthy setting, where it’ss safe to let go and experience, to be guided by space holders who look out for you.
If you feel called to experience this work—held safely, compassionately, and with deep intention: our next Magic Truffel Ceremonie - Nieuwjaarseditie takes place January 10–11.
✨ Two day retreat
✨ Including intake process & introduction call
✨ Including overnight stay and meals
✨ Heart-centered spaceholders
✨ A deeply safe environment designed for inner exploration
✨ Newyears meditation & exercise
✨ Connected Breathwork Circle
✨ Sharing circle
✨ And a community that welcomes you exactly as you are
If something inside you whispers “maybe”… trust that whisper.
Your next chapter might begin the same way mine did—with one brave yes.
