09/11/2022
Recently I've taken a hiatus from teaching and been almost avoiding it. I've told myself all sorts of stories as to why, 'I don't have time with starting a new job', 'I can't hold space for others at the moment', 'I'm not good enough anyway...'. Some valid excuses and others no so valid....'the universe isn't given me opportunities at the moment, so this can't be the right time'.....um, spiritual bypassing anyone!?
The truth is all the above and mainly having massive imposter syndrome, not feeling like a good enough teacher and avoiding opportunities to step out and share in fear of....alot of stuff!
When I was asked to teach a corperate yoga class for the end of this year, my immediate gut reaction was HELL NO! I do not have the skills or time to plan that! They won't enjoy it!
Before responding, I took myself away and had a kind word to myself (not all 100% kind, but mainly)...and truly reflected on where the NO was coming from....and from there decided to say YES.
I spent the next week researching, planning and practising the class like i was a new teacher all over again. I gave myself mantras to feel safe and confident and....absolutely loved teaching. We had fun, laughed and chilled out and I stepped out of the space feeling like I'd really made a difference to people's day, which is the whole reason why I love to teach.
Sometimes what you think may be intuition or a gut reaction isn't what it first seems. Sometimes I might take 1, 2...3 weeks to make an important decision (especially when it's an immediate NO reaction) to ensure its coming from a place of confidence (Sometimes that's still a no), and not fear.
I look forward to continuing this path of growth and self development so I can keep showing up for myself and sharing with others.
Gratitude to everyone who are my supporters with my teaching, .nz for the opportunity and encouragement and especially .alchemy who is helping me beyond words. You know who the rest of you are ❤