02/02/2026
Probably one of the toughest human journeys in this physical realm. The path of sobriety. Even more so in these modern times...Wherever you look, there's something external - or which triggers the internal - that numbs us. From legal drugs to the very screen in front of our eyes. These copying mechanisms were never ours to start with.
When I went to my first party in New Zealand back in 2018, looking forward to finding new friends or someone to fill up my 'loliness', the very first thing offered to me was obviously alcohol. Even before arriving at the party, my workmates had already bought spirits and were making cheaper drinks to save spending a lot of money in the club.
'What? You don't drink? Come on, first time I hear a Brazilian saying he doesn't drink," said my friend, laughing, already drunk.
Implicit in that approach was an enslaved social conditioning added to an even more ridiculous cultural assumption. And to finish, the poor input, another acquaintance said, "Why did you come to the party if you don't drink?" I said: I used to, but now I've come to realize that I don't need alcohol to have fun. At that time, it had been two years since I had abandoned alcohol forever, before it would make abandoning myself.
But I knew, still, that there is a long way to be a real sober person. I didn’t use anything that night, but later on, a few months after, recreational cannabis hit hard my migrant solitude journey. My understanding at that time was that I was resorting to something to relieve my stress, to regulate my nervous system, to be able to sleep a bit longer, to relax, so to speak.
Please, don't take me wrong or feel offended. Substances are part of human history, Earth history, and somehow play their role in the evolutionary path of humanity. The stoned monkey theory says that a group of apes started to consume mushrooms often as part of their diet, and it very likely contributed to the evolution of their brain to a new species, homo sapiens. Without the funghi plants would've never existed.
Natural psychedelics are an amazing tool to reconnect with the real, invisible, and subtle reality of our inner nature, when used ceremonially or therapeutically. Although we didn't have the need to have them at source when we incarnated in these bodies. Still, Great Spirit made them available in case we have forgotten ourselves.
However, there is an enormous difference in using a substance to numb or escape from ourselves, and soberly using a substance, with intention and respect, to evolve the Self.
When I quit alcohol in 2016, I knew that many other paths would open, tempting, of course, to keep me out of sobriety.
Interestingly enough, Mother Ayahuasca showed inumerous reasons, guiding me to an alcohol-free life. And after six years of consecrating the Medicine, I also noticed that I was overdoing it to the point of misuse. It was becoming a crutch. So, I left the community I was part of and, instructed by the plant medicine, I left my homeland and arrived in Aotearoa.
Then, here I could perceive more deeply how deceptive and seductive the system works upon society. It wants to keep us under control, numbed, alienated, intoxicated with anything that prevents us from looking within ourselves and reclaiming our divine origin. It wants, more desperately than ever, to keep us like sheep inside the fences, the downward spiral cycles of self-inflicted blindness, hurt, dumbness, numb, back-to-back intergenerational trauma, external chase for validation, love, and pleasure outside of us.
Meanwhile, our holy life-force is drained to feed the parasites who are pushing hard, very much right now, to maintain the source of their power: the human spirit. That old saying in books, films and stories is true in many ways, the enemy will give you anything you want in exchange for your soul.
Plants that used to be sacred, just used in ceremonies, like cannabis, are now genetically modified to increase their active compound potency, sold in large quantities for the populations to indulge in their 'happy hours' and eat as unhealthy as possible, fostering also the food industry. Cannabis is becoming legal worldwide not because it is primarily, in its origins, a medicinal plant, but because it can be very profitable. What Bob Marley used to smoke - in a state of liturgy - was an entirely natural plant not modified by man.
I hope you're getting my point here. The matrix wants you numb, domesticated like a pet, away from self-sovereignty. And they're warping and twisting even what should be always sacred - a sacrilege - in order to sell you a palliative solution for your chronic stress, your illness, your overthinking, your childhood trauma, caused by the system itself in the first place.
Synthesizing the organic. Putting AI to think for or over us. Creating addiction from the very social media I'm posting this from. There are many ways nowadays to get you out of your original sober state, I could write endless paragraphs naming them. The enemy knows it is not necessary an external substance to keep you numb; they can do it by providing you an external trigger that keeps you inebriated on your own bodily fluids, such as endorphins and hormones, the famous dopamine hit. Po*******hy is a classic example. And it drains your sacredness in a way that you don't even imagine.
J***y food is another, alongside sugary and caffeinated drinks; but they also add monosodium glutamate and numbers that are not even food, to keep you addicted, coming back to the grocery shop to buy them again and again.
So, I've been on this tough but spectacularly wonderful journey to stabilize to the point zero, to reclaim an authentic sobriety, to return to my innocence - not naivety - but my spiritual child, in order to see the world as it is: raw, rough, painful, real, without filters, without fake, facing its hardships and challenges on a clean state(slate), just by purely being, breathing, aware.
In this journey inwards, as I walk the healing path facilitating reset, detox, and energetic rebalance through the sacred ancient medicines of Sweat Lodge and Kambô - looking after people and helping them heal themselves - I see how crucial and non-negotiable it is to be sober, for myself first, and as a primary instance of cleanliness. How can I offer an authentic and safe space for healing, if I'm not giving the very example myself?
It requires deep discipline and self-awareness, commitment, vigilancy, metacognition, deep self-observation and mental dialogue, mindfulness...If you really want go that way. Remembering who you really are, like an innocent child in an adult body. One of the best tools is simply closing my eyes and sitting still. Meditation, a mediation between the physical and spiritual reality, has the mind as the catalyst. Aware that the relapse might be part of the journey until the subconscious mind is fully rewired.
We can use all these tools, but still, we will fail every time if we're not able to say No, in the name of inner love. We all have been traumatized, but in the end of the day is up to us to choose if we're going to use it as an excuse, a justification to hurt ourselves even more, or hold tight and confront the trauma face-to-face, sober as.
Because the ultimate and foremost technique is the one that has been aways there with us, given by the Spirit, the capacity to love ourselves so unconditionally and truthfully that we're able to say no to the things that don't serve us anymore, that poison our bodies and souls, keeping us playing small, distancing ourselves from the higher-self, causing soul fragmentation and unrecovarable trauma. Self-Love is actually the only thing we need to reclaim ourselves back to an original state of being, a being of Love.
If you feel the higher call, reach out and we can do it together, supporting each other. It won't be easy, but I can tell you, it's immeasurably rewarding. It is not about trying to be perfect, is about being a human in the pure way we were conceived from our mother's womb. And even tough there are some of us who were conditioned and traumatized from the womb of an unhealed mother. And we have to forgive her, if we want to move forward and break down the programming from its very root.
In the beginning feels like there is nowhere to run, anxiety quicks everywhere, you want to cling on something, anything to relieve whatever it is. Here is where you have to stay with the pain, watch it, embrace it, withstand it.
Then little by little, consistently, trusting in the inner being, creating new pathways through neuroplasticity, observing and seeing people, environments and patterns, you come to realize that you make the final decision to stay sober or not, regardless of any external pressure. Because before getting altered, you were sober in the first place. Within time, you will know that the harmony of the world within is more valuable than any temporal illusion, indulgence, addiction or destructive behaviour.
This post is not a rebellion or a protest against the system. I'm not trying to fix you up, because you're not broken. You're the only one capable to heal yourself. This is an invitation to step forward for yourself, an eternal invitation to self-discovery.
I'm accepting more and more myself in my natural state, and I'm truly realizing that this isn't the fastest, but is definitely the best way to get High. In love, and in God.
