26/01/2024
Hey, hi to you all 🖖🏼✌🏼
It's been a hot minute since I've showen up in my business space on here.
Lovely to see the growth of while I've been m.i.a.
I have been away with myself sifting, shifting my way through my own layers of being of who I became to date.
I was called to really delve into spaces of self that I needed to address as I entered a realm of revealing the versions of self that I had still been acting out due to bypassing crucial code of conduct within my healing journey - essentially journeying the path home into my heart space.
Navigating journeys within journeys within this great big journey has not been easy and I've really awoken to the fact that It was given knowledge as I was signing my earthly contractual agreement before hopped skipped and jumped my way down here.
As of recent I have met with many versions of myself.
Versions I loved
Versions I loathed
Versions I cringed at
Versions I dismissed that were dark and twisted
Versions that were light and luminous
So many characters I have played in my own narrative to fit into the collective narrative that I had forgotten I had tripped into.
In order for me to arrive anywhere near the alignment back onto my path into my own heart, I've have to actually learn to love them all.
I have surrenderd into a state of accepting ALL of me.
I have had to allow myself to soften enough to recieve this acceptance from self to self also.
My hardend heart was rejecting every ounce acceptance/love because I was so f**king judgmental of myself and had unknowingly slipped into a space of deep regret.
Regret of most of my life.
Picking and choosing what parts of me got to be accepted.
A truth of mine is that you can not embody states of love in its truest form if you can not accept every universal given ounce of being that you are..you will not move forward along your path of truth and evolution if you try to bypass this level.
You may think you have only due to the false narratives you conjour up in your mind and that will project externally yes, however without crucial levels being completed, you will not be able to hold the vision for long as you are still holding onto versions of self that are 1, no longer you and are weighing you down and 2, you have not even accepted these old versions of self to clear off the weight you still trying to carry around.
Energy never lies.
Eventually everything catches up with you and if one trys to bypass the spaces within that need the most acceptance then you get placed back at which ever check point you cloaked up with your masks and maneuvered your way around (by-passing) your own levels of growth/evolution.
Acceptance is a key to the gateway that leads you along the path of love in true form, all masks and cloaks are disolved as they are not needed here.
A wise soul once shared with me that "there is limited mana (power/authority) walking in the light"
I reed this i few ways, 1 being..
For one to experience the whole of this life that is to ne lived is to be ready and willing to experience ALL OF SELF.
Another being that you can only learn/achieve/embody to a point when moving within the light.
You need to be able to embody both dark and light of self in order to be able to walk in all directions of this experience..
1 other way being that,
To walk in "the light" you must be willing and able to walk through your own darkness.
It is through recognizing what stares you down and chases you in your dreams or what you threw into those cages that you locked up and threw away the keys, everything that sits in those shadow corners you may be too afraid to clean or even what you continued to pray to leave you because "It's not who you are"...its all you you and it all needs to be seen by you..
It's like being thrown into jail without any opportunity to present your case to the judge who also = you.
I have learnt so much more of the worlds within me sbd those external to me through stepping into myself where I have feared the most.
Every womb is home to darkness and from that darkness life/light was born.
Think of the cosmic womb
Your mother's womb
Ancient tombs that preserve death within uniquely tailored spaces that are reserved for sacred light.
I'll leave this here for now.
I'll flow in and out of here as I see nessesary while I re-establish this space and what I will be offering to those who are/will be in resonance of.
Much love to you who are in the quickening of your shadow work, those fears that you try to drown out with your light, they will continue to resurface unless you lead them along the path to your heart where your light house lays..remember that you are dealing with yourself and what you hide.
You are not alone in these times ✨️
B🥀x
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