04/10/2025
Today is quite a significant date in my ongoing journey that I would like to acknowledge, appreciate and share.
After I got sober I spiralled into a deep depression and started using prescription pain killers and junk food as a coping mechanism to put myself to sleep as I just didn’t want to be awake.
My health declined even more so than it already had after the 10 months of active addiction. I felt so weak, unfit and just overall unwell, mentally and physically. I spent the most part of the following 6 months in my bed either sleeping, crying or eating junk food which obviously perpetuated the situation and as a result I gained 20 kgs.
I knew exactly what I had to do but I was stuck in a rut that just felt impossible to get out of. I moped around feeling sorry for myself until I finally decided I couldn’t keep living like this. I had hit my second rock bottom.
I knew my body was 100% my own responsibility and only I could do som**hing about it. So I did.
On the 4th of October 2023 I made a conscious decision to put my best effort into restoring my health and finding myself again. Today marks exactly 2 years from that date.
I can’t believe what I have been able to achieve in the last 2 years and I am forever grateful for the life I live now and for the person I am today.
I went from not wanting to wake up every morning to now feeling the best I have ever felt. I genuinely look forward to waking up at 5AM, going to CrossFit most mornings, training at the gym, prioritising what is meaningful to me like nourishing my body with good quality food, travelling, spending time with my dogs and seeing the progress I can make each day, both mentally and physically. And of course, still remaining sober.
Seeing how I have rebuilt myself from rock bottom to where I am today in just 2 years honestly still feels surreal. I am beyond proud of myself and I am not ashamed to say that.
It was hard work to get to where I am today, and sometimes it still is hard but I always tell myself ‘you need to chase it as hard as you chased your addiction’ and it gets me through.
So cheers to 2 years of living a meaningful life again ❤️