22/12/2025
Rituals.
We all have them.
Whether they sit on the healthy or maybe less healthy end of the spectrum, rituals are deeply ingrained within us. A morning coffee or matcha, a familiar routine that helps us arrive into the day. Small moments where we pause, gather our thoughts, shift brainwave patterns and gently wake the thinking mind.
It took me a long time to see the connection between these everyday rituals and the grander ceremonial spaces I’d later find myself in. But when I distilled it down, it was simple. Ritual is an invitation to pause, take a breath, and go within. And from there, we begin to connect with intuition. A place that can feel quietly revolutionary when you first discover it.
A decade ago, I celebrated my first summer solstice in ceremony in Bali. I was months out of a marriage ending, nearing the end of a period of travel, and about to return to Aotearoa to live again after a 15-year hiatus. It felt like coming full circle. Sitting there, I made a vow to start living by the seasons. Something that would later become a saving grace as I navigated colder winters, lockdowns, and the inability to escape them. Those years taught me to love the beauty held within every season.
In that ceremony, chanting myself into a deeply meditative state, a realisation landed. I had begun to trust the flow of life and myself. In the months prior, I’d finally started listening to my intuition. Leaving a marriage. Walking away from a lucrative but incredibly demanding job that had me constantly overwhelmed and on high alert. Leaving a country I’d called home for 12 years. On the other side of the fear stories I’d listened to for so long was freedom.
There was a moment where I felt myself leave my body, gazing down at myself in a sea of blissed-out hippies, fully surrendered to the experience. I remember thinking how much judgement my old self would have had if she could see me now. The rigid version of me that had slowly dissolved over the years. She would have said, “You’ve really lost the plot. Singing and dancing your way into non-ordinary states of consciousness. How do you think you’ll make a living like this?”
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