19/10/2025
A LITTLE LONG-WINDED BUT STICK WITH ME ON THIS ONE.
I'm sitting up because I can't sleep just one of those nights at my age.
Thinking back to a time that was absolutely horrendous, gross, scarry, and weirdly special. My son has recently gotten influenza A again, (hes fine, no issues ), but it takes me back to the last time he had it.
He was eight, and he just about died. He got complication upon complication. He ended up with phenomena, then developed an empyema (pus in the lungs) and had to have many drains in and surgerys, he ended up flying to starship for a surgery called a throacotomy (where they open up the side of his chest to remove the pus.) In the end he was fine except for having another surgery at 17 to fix his back as due to the scar tissues his spine grew crooked.
What I'm getting at is in that time in the hosptial my family became tighter, my mother and father in law looked after my daughter while we were in auckland, my mother a nurse whom I trust 100% with any medical knowledge flew up to be there for me, my husband and the kids and to translate medical terms.
Even though it was the horrendous time of our lives, the world stopped. We didn't care about anything else, not work, not bills, not gossip, nothing, just our family, and the next minute, the next hour, the next surgery.
And through all that, it had a kind of peace to it, a peace I wish we could all feel without the horrendous circumstances.
Tonight, it got me thinking how lucky we were to not lose him, to experience that at least the peace part (don't get me wrong I think we all suffered a little bit of PTSD and my daughter had alot of emotional trauma attached to it) and I would not want to go through that again.
But it taught me that when it all comes down to it, when the world or your world is falling apart, all that matters is those you love and those who love you, nothing else. So, I guess my long-winded post is just to say cherish those you love. Let them know you love them. Don't assume they know because sometimes everyone needs to be reminded. Love and light, everyone.
Now stop scrolling and go to bed.