14/12/2025
This wasn’t the hardest pose.
The hardest part was sitting.
Breathing. Stopping.
Letting my body arrive after two days of travel, time zones, holding myself together.
I had huge emotions coming back to my beautiful studio… lots of fears, anxiety of judgement for not being there, not feeling my whole best self… and many days of non sleep. Plus all the usual stressors of running a business, trying to see everyone and always “behind!”
Movement was familiar. I’ve been on the go non-stop for 2yrs around the world. Juggling the business, my school students, travel.
Stillness wasn’t.
And that’s something I see again and again — especially with people who are capable, strong, and used to coping.
When we’ve spent years moving through life by doing, the body doesn’t always know how to settle right away.
So when we pause, it can feel restless, uncomfortable, or even unsettling.
That doesn’t mean we’re doing it wrong.
It means the body is learning something new.
This is why we don’t rush stillness.
Why we don’t force rest.
Why sitting and breathing can be just as much a practice as any pose.
It’s also the foundation of how we teach — in our Petone studio and the part of my life I was missing (or lacking).
If you’ve ever found stillness harder than movement, you’re not alone.
And there’s nothing to fix.
Just a gentle place to begin.
What an incredible return back to join Jannines class especially with my bestie who has flown from Christchurch just for the day! 💕
It’s good to be back! Not still yet- but stiller. 🙈🥰
