JodieeMarshall

07/07/2022

20/06/2022

23/05/2022

I’ve found it really vulnerable to be seen in various expressions of my Aliveness over the years

As a little girl I often felt like an outsider to the rest of the family. Watching home movies I catch glimpses of myself in the background sinking into my own world, playing with plastic tree figurines whilst my sisters danced and pranced around in the ecstatic expression of their joy and aliveness

I remember a few years ago I was told by a good friend how disinterested I seemed when met with exciting, life changing circumstances

Truth is, I was numb to it all
It was unsafe territory for me

Really, my system was stuck in freeze state

When Freeze occurs we experience a sense of dread in our nervous system, a temporary pause which throws our body to into highly activated immobility

Exploring the physical and emotional body has been life altering for just this, understanding that those expressions have always existed inside of us, they just didn’t feel safe to be seen

Becoming familiar with whats resting underneath allowed the shame and incuriosity to thaw and re- emerge as Vitality, pure life force energy

And to me, this is what it means to be Alive

Living in the Truth of how Life wishes to arise through us, be that in our joy or in our grief

Today I felt a combination of everything, the joy of simply existing, yet grieving the uncertainty of it all

It’s all perfectly imperfect, just as it is

Oh how utterly human of us all to feel like this
🤍

What’s Alive for you today?

04/05/2022

Waiting, always waiting
for someone
or something
else
to offer You permission
to feel excited
to feel joyful
to feel strong
to feel powerful
to feel secure
What if
the permission you needed
was You
all along?
What if
all it took
was You
calling all of that energy
back
and claiming it
as your own?
and
No,
I’m not naive
to the need
for human
connection
nor physical
contact
But,
What if
there was a way
that you could realise that
the person you needed to chase
was You
all along?
No,
You don’t need to prove
to convince
nor constrict
someone
into Loving You
(The illusion is the need for control)
and letting go requires
discipline
discomfort
But,
What if
it was You?
that had your own back
and all it took
was your attention
to your relationship
to Yourself
to realise
that You
deserved Loving
all along?
🤍
This
is the moment
we
come home

31/03/2022

The Path of Intimacy is a commitment to living life all the way in

It’s devoting your full presence to life’s ecstatic triumphs

Just as much as it’s many turbulent waves

It’s not turning away from the hardship, nor numbing out, suppressing or avoiding

It’s saying

Yes to the difficulties
Yes to the grief
Yes to the tears and fears

And alchemising them all

Into Love again.

♾🫀

The degree at which you avoid intimacy with yourself, is the degree to which you are denying it with another

Intimacy begins with you, furthermore setting the foundation for intimacy with lovers

12/03/2022

Inhabiting the fullness of what’s alive today with the sunrise dancing beside me🌞

05/03/2022

Your tenderness is a gift

Your body a well of arousal and creative abundance

It was was always right here, not upon screens or pages of books

It’s time that you remember this

Beautify your life by creating intimacy with each breathe of aliveness

Transform your internal space into your very own sensual sanctuary

Indulge in the fruits of your curvaceous skin

Sink your teeth into the delicacy of your Heart space

Allow the gratitude of life to ripple throughout your entire being

You are the embodiment of Love and Fulfilment

Your pain, your beauty and everything in between

We need all of you here

It really is that simple

You hold an endless source of magic from within
🫀

26/02/2022

I’ve recently began connecting with someone, and a few days ago I shared with my mentor how experiencing this level of devotion from a man caused me to feel terrified

As a young girl I was so hungry for the recognition of another, so dependant on a man to validate my existence. I yearned for someone to offer me the safety and security I always craved, yet when relating, the cracks soon appeared between us and the bubble of illusion popped almost instantly, there I found myself again, feeling invisible, alone

All of these false personas I created to ensure I was seen as worthy and desirable, in order to receive Love caused me to loose myself, give away my power and silence the truth of my voice

Reality was, I could never be met by another, because I had yet to meet myself

By creating self trust with my inner little girl, offering her my attention by processing the emotional aspects of her pain, I soon landed in a place of Truth, where her words became my priority to tend to before anyone else’s

Speaking to her gently, receiving all she desired, I began offering all that she required from me, and in turn I met someone who could meet me right where I was. In no way did this connection arrive through a rush of hormones filling me with intoxicating excitement, yet it landed slowly, gently, consciously and within divine timing

What I came to realise was, my safety and security could never be found in the arms of another, because it was here along

My fear now was that this man could take that from me again, yet he could never steal what was always mine

My power, safety, my wholeness is all sourced from me

By learning how to take up space in the fullness of my being, this bond that’s developed has done so with awareness, transparency, openness, and receptivity

Allowing me to rest deeper into the intimacy presented within each moment

I can’t say what’s yet to come, I don’t know, and that’s the true beauty of it all

I’m simply excited to explore whatever possibilities present themselves along the way

The only thing I know for sure is, Self Love was the medicine I needed all along

23/02/2022

Much of our s.xual disconnection stems from the relationship, or lack of relationship we have with our own body

The world outside does a pretty good job of keeping us stuck in this cycle of disconnection with its many distractions in place, work, TV, phones, substances

Much of the time this can cause dissatisfaction within our intimate relationships, when we begin to place so much pressure on ourselves and another to deliver us to pleas^re again

We point blame on our body, deem it as broken or ugly, yet it holds deeper wisdom than what the mind can even fathom

Our body holds onto years, centuries of unprocessed emotions which reeks havoc on our nervous system and relationships - conscious or not - causing us to feel anxious, stressed, disconnected and even sometimes in physical pain

When we take away the goal and bring awareness into our internal landscape, it can initially elicit agitation and impatience, yet for us to move at the pace of which our nervous system feels safe to let go and explore, it requires slowness and attention to expand and create internal spaciousness

For true relaxation and safety to emerge, meeting these deemed ‘wrong’ feelings and sensations is required

Offering them space and a voice to exist, is where we gently begin to meet our aliveness once again

With a guided process we soon let go of control and tensions and allow ourselves to receive the medicine that is here, however it wishes to present itself

Assisting us in feeling safe, soft, open and ready to receive again
🫀
〰️

17/02/2022

I couldn’t care less about the strategies if I tried, the algorithm that demands I overstretch my natural waves of creativity in order to stay relevant in a world full of noise & short attention spans

I couldn’t care less about manifesting my way to wealth if I tried, contorting the earths natural abundance in order to offer me something that is seen of value to the external eye

I couldn’t care less about meditating to seek joy if I tried, the very essence of what makes me human is my deep longing to experience life as the one who rides these depths of pain & joy

Does that make me less spiritual?

That I don’t call on anything that is seperate from me for guidance?

Could we not just keep it a little more simple?

And stay hungry, messy, and alive?

Or do I need to ask for permission?

To stay sensitive in a world that thrives off hardening me?

I am not an object, nor a brand or some higher power

I am human

A whole, feeling, human

I am so inside of life that the ground could fall beneath me and I would ask you to take me deeper

Does that scare you?

That I could loose control so much so that all is left exist is openness, emptiness

Inside of this vessel that is utterly exhausted of agenda yet bursting with Love & Pleasure

For everything

Would you stay a little longer?

If I told that softness was the gateway to your essence

If I said that to enter this place of nourishment all it took was your embodied presence?

This is my full body ‘f**k yes’

Connected to a life of remembrance

With a heart wide open dripping with pleasure

This is my only commitment

And that is up to you if you wish to harden further or enter..