Emerge Free, Tauranga (2025)

04/12/2024

I’ve recently been emerging from my cocoon and have been working on a creative project close to my heart 🦋

I’m launching Thriving Solo, The Podcast 🎙️ – a space for single and/or independent parents to share their stories and experiences on how they’ve navigated the good and the tough times. A place to laugh, cry and acknowledge how unique this journey is.

We’ll be chatting about all things solo parenting from pregnancy, dating, wellbeing, parenting through tough times, and so much more!

I’m keen to connect with wonderful humans who would love to share their story - whether you’re a Mum, Dad, Co-Parent, let’s create something beautiful together. DM me for a chat 💫

Photo by the wonderful

04/05/2023

🎧I absolutely loved sitting down with my beautiful friend & rockstar birth support - Carla .birth, to share my wonderful birthing experience on her Podcast.

Birth is so unpredictable, as I found out!

Together we chat through my first two births, mindset shifts for enabling a , solo parenthood, milk sharing, a NICU visit post birth and so much more!

Grab a cuppa and have a listen ✨ birth

18/03/2023

These Lazy Sunday Mornings give me all of the feels 💕

15/03/2023

He has arrived! 💙

I roared him into this world, at home, surrounded by the most amazing birth support team.

Osian Theo Lewis Jones - you have captured our hearts ❤️

I can’t wait to share my birth story with you all ✨ Supported by my beautiful friend Carla Sargent and awesome midwife - Raigan Hodgson, I worked my ass off to achieve a HBAC after two previous cesarean’s!

For now, we’ve abandoned all expectation of being “productive” and are focused on rest, feeding, healing and bonding at home 💕

21/02/2023

39 weeks 💜

This pregnancy I opted to fully embrace the amazing changes in my body.

It’s definitely been a journey as I’ve reached new levels of self acceptance and deep love for how truly amazing our female bodies can be.

Growing new life. Still blows my mind 🤯

Thank you to the beautiful Imke Kauta Photography who once again made frolicking around on a public beach, semi naked, a fun and joyful experience!

24/11/2022

I’ve always been told I’m too sensitive. Feel too deeply, express too much of myself.

So, I built great big walls around me.

Strong enough to contain my emotions and thick enough to protect me from my own vulnerability.

I used alcohol to push and numb my thoughts and emotional body until I couldn’t feel a single thing.

I marched through life with a stone face and heart, determined to be what others needed me to be. Hard, logical, sensible.

Then I had children.

They soften my walls, showed me a love that weakened the foundations.

As they weakened, I started to experience hurt and I decided to let it in.

Painful situations that brought up unresolved wounds and beliefs.

Pure gifts from people that allowed me to discover who I am.

That s**t blew my walls right up, until there were none.

I started to feel my feelings, hear what they had to say and explored deeper parts of myself.

I embraced all of my sensitivity, recognised it as my super power.
My strength.

I began to notice that when I truly shared all of me, it allowed others to do the same.

And I got to experience a level of connection that brought me to my knees.

My old life simply fell away. The things and people who no longer served me, floated into oblivion.

I was sad, yet relieved.

A new me was building.

I swapped numbing for embracing my connection with self.
I swapped the shame of sensitivity with story telling and connection with others.

I saw the love in the darkness of myself and embraced it.

It gave me the ability to accept people for who and where they’re at in life.

To be a kick ass māmā, therapist and coach 💕

It gave me the ability to accept that I am me!

Sensitive, Deep, Joyful, Content, Messy, and beyond grateful for it all!

Never allow someone to shame you for the beauty of your sensitive nature - bathe in all its glory!

How freaking powerful are we when we allow those walls to crumble?

23/11/2022

Today felt a little hard,
a little sad,
a little bit heavy,
and a little bit f*ck you world! 👊

It was one of those days.

It was a day of looking at families and
feeling an unfamiliar sting.

That’s the way it “should” be.

Yet, it’s not.

And that truth, that feeling of shame, felt a little hard to swallow, just for today.

So I stopped, took time to really acknowledge my feelings, my choices, my thoughts, my reality.

I heard myself whisper that “this too shall pass”.

Being positive or optimistic isn’t about living in an airy fairy world where rainbows fly out of your ass cause you’re always soooo positive 🌈

It’s recognising that life can sometimes be challenging and feel f*cking hard 🥊

It’s understanding that it’s ok to experience feelings of sadness, shame and grief ☔️

To want something, yet be experiencing a very different reality.

It’s accepting all that life brings.

All the feelings
All the experiences

And understanding that you will be ok, no matter what the outcome.

My mantra when things get a little tough is “this too shall pass” 🌸 and reminding myself that things are happening for me, not against me 🌹

What’s yours?

16/11/2022

Casually hanging out at Muriwai Beach, semi naked and baring the lil bump with the wonderful .berseneva 💕

I attended the very potent WomanHood Retreat by Nikki Rhodes with many other gorgeous humans.

In the beautiful surrounds of Kula - Muriwai, we connected, we laughed, we cried, we danced, we opened our hearts and we accepted one another for the wonderful humans that we are.

This was a huge journey for me. I walked in feeling lost, disconnected and s**t scared of what was to come with my journey. I left inspired, connected and full of love and joy for this new adventure of mine.

I was reminded of my courage, my power, my grace and my resilience.

I was reminded of community, connection, love and the vast support network that can exists - if we create it.

Sometimes we need to experience a sense of disarray to reach clarity. 🙏

24/10/2022

My body is changing + I freaking love it!

I never thought I’d have this time again.
Nurturing and growing a tiny human
Birthing new life into this world ❤️

There’s been so many emotions as I’ve watched my body change.

Parts of me that I worked tirelessly to tighten, tone and starve away, are now plump and soft to the touch.

My belly grows each and every day.

It’s amazing how pregnancy can unlock old stories. I held such an attachment to my body, my image, my self worth.

Old stories that led me down romantic paths without fulfilment. Surely I cannot be worthy of a healthy love, looking like this?

Yet, here I am. Rubbing my growing belly with a giant sized smile on my face.

Shouting to the world - “look at this amazing freaking bump and check out these b***s - hubba, hubba!”

I’m growing life once more and it blows my mind away 🤯

Each kick and each movement brings a wave of love my way. How lucky am I that I get to experience this again?

This is my season of change, of acceptance, of embracing this beautiful body of mine.

I realise how much inner work I’ve done to get to this point of acceptance. To hold a mindset that embraces and sees the beauty of my pregnant body.

How radiant and powerful I feel right now. It’s not been easy to face old wounds and stories, even harder is the process to release them.

Cultivating self love is one of the most amazing journeys you’ll go on.

10/10 - would recommend 🙏

21/10/2022

Letting Go & Surrendering 🌈

“You must learn to let go. Release the stress. You were never in control anyway.” ~Steve Maraboli

The space between denial and acceptance is where I feel it the most. The discomfort, the ache within me, wishing and wanting for things to be different.

I often find myself with a need to control life. Suffocating myself through the process.

Fear of the unknown.
Fear of the made up stories in my head.
Fear of what people will do or how they’ll behave.

My world feels smaller when I’m operating from this place. My body tightens. My breath quickens, my heart palpitates. My vision narrows.

There’s no space to feel joy or excitement, only angst and panic.

Then I’m reminded that we cannot control everything in life.

Acceptance of what is, leaves me feeling free. Surrendering to what is, leaves me breathless.

Weight lifted
Open to what life brings my way.

Surrendering is not about ‘giving up’. Surrendering is accepting things for what they are, in that moment.

When I feel myself moving into a mode of control and fear I stop and ask myself:

✨ What are the stories that my mind is creating? What’s true about them?

✨ What do I actually have control over right now?

✨What would it feel like to let go of this?

✨ Where can I loosen my grip?

✨What can I do to feel safe right now?

✨ What meaningful action do I want to take in this moment?

The journey into the unknown can be freakin scary. Our minds can make up all kinds of weird and wonderful stories.

Trust that you’ll be ok. That you’re strong enough to navigate and thrive, whatever comes your way.

Get clear on what you can control - your self talk , your actions, who and where you invest your time, your nourishment, your movement, how you treat others.

Accept the space between expectation and reality.

Let go. Surrender.

I promise, you’ll be ok ❤️

05/10/2022

✨ When life has other plans ✨

That confused look when you’re happily turning 40 and boom 💥 surprise! The last 5 months has been a journey of exploration, joy, sadness, and all the feels, as I venture into becoming a Māmā once more ❤️

To my friends and family - thank you for being such a supportive and loving group of humans!

Here’s to a new chapter, heart wide open - here we go! 💙

Welcoming a little guy into this world come March 2023 🌈

05/08/2022

My Journey to a Healthier and Happier Me.

Ten years ago I was living what most people would call ‘the dream’. A beautiful husband, great career, our own home, two amazing kids and let’s not forget the white picket fence. Magical right?

What people didn’t see was the constant drinking, numbing of emotions and feelings of hopelessness. The photo on the left- taken at my hen’s party! Don’t I look peachy?!

The reality was I hated who I saw in the mirror and I couldn’t shake these immense feelings of shame, for who I was.

Those feelings of shame, they give you no peace.

They keep you away from your dreams, your aspirations, your friends, your family and yourself.

Drinking was my saviour, a quick fix to numb those feelings.

I spent my days trying to hold myself together hoping nobody would recognise my disheveled self, all the time I would tell myself that tonight is THE night - no more drinking, only to find myself with a wine glass in hand by 5:00 p.m. The cycle continued.

The low points kept on coming, drunken nights, forgotten actions, embarrassing behaviours and hurting those around me.

My body grew sick and the fake veneer of my ‘picture perfect’ life started to crumble around me.

Something had to give.

After spending time in the abyss of my own misery I emerged ready to take action and responsibility over my life.

I left my marriage (the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make), my six figure job, ditched the booze and dove into my healing.

Real change came after I experienced the wonders of Rapid Transformation Therapy, completely transforming my beliefs around “not being good enough” & “always being a f*uck up”.

Rapid Transformation Therapy smashed through the b*lls**t stories I’d been telling myself my entire life and unearthed who I truly am.

Fast forward to today and I am a healthy and happier human.

Curious to learn what it would be like to work with me?

Book an initial coaching call - Link in Bio x

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