12/08/2025
NOBODY TOLD ME THAT BEING IN YOUR 20s AS A NURSE WOULD BE THIS HARD.
Hi, I’m a 26-year-old lost, empty, pressured, unsure, and puzzled soul.
I barely know that being here would be
HEAVY…..
I’ve been questioning whether this profession is for me. I’ve been seeking peace and repeatedly asking myself if, in the first place, I want to be a nurse.
Just like other professions, other adulting individuals. I know they are also finding their ways, finding the path they are meant for. Every day, I remind myself to focus on others and consider the needs and feelings of those around me, including my family and the expectations of others. But this time around, I learned to look inside me, look at my heart’s condition, my mental state, and my physical condition.
Have you ever seen yourself doing things that you are not happy with? This is the reality of life. Reality of everyone’s child. We are what we are now because we ought to choose not only ourselves alone, but also what others’ perceptions are all about.
How come no one told us that being here would cost us to inhale deeply and breathe deeply and heavily, and never to breathe lightly and not to exhale more often. Am I not the only one who feels like I’m stuck, drowning, and not moving forward, but moving nothing and melting? The me that I know is melting, and I don’t know how to adapt.
However, in MELTING, what I mean is even if I melt, I will always be whole again. I will try to be the Charlene who is always waiting, trying, understanding, and listening to how things should be, even if it is draining. I never meant to live heavily, I don’t want to feel a lot of responsibilities and tasks, because now that’s my definition of life. Tasks and duties…..
But life should be lived for and not died for.
But life should make you happy and not miserable.
But life should be more about prioritizing yourself because you cannot give to others things you are not receiving.
But life is meant to be enjoyed and not to be stressed about.
I have lapses, shortcomings, and am not perfect. I can’t even handle myself, manage my time, and I think time is not enough for myself alone. But if I can discover how I can cope with handling everything. Maybe if I’m already stable and not the broken or unhealed inner child that I am, I would be better.
I don’t know how to be healed, but one thing is for sure. I want to live the best life and have a purpose.
-Charlene B. (2k25)
