26/02/2026
I woke up today feeling extremely tired. My head was heavy, my throat sensitive...and I sent a voice note to the students meant to have the weekly Qigong practice with me, sharing how I was feeling today and deciding on not to have today's live class.
And the interesting thing is that for a very long part of my of my life, showing up had a different meaning. It meant being constantly on. Always available, always productive. It's not anymore. Now it means being true to my energy in the now. And it translates as actually living my Medicine.
Students and clients are not paying me for my time or the hours I am live with them. People want to work with me for my energy, my truth, and the embodiment of what I share. So truly, it would be terribly unprofessional of me to actually teach today.
And I am still learning. Still in my own human design experiment. My own life experiment. And sometimes I still push myself a little harder than I have the capacity for. Of course capacity expands, but so does compassion, tenderness & self-love. Lately this has been meaning a lot of inner and outer work redesigning my entire business ecosystem, with my Saffron and now my Oracular sisters. And it has been meaning a lot of focus, a lot of yang and a lot of beauty as well. An expansion.
And you know what?The clients that are meant to work with me, and the clients and students that are in my field, have celebrated and supported me for this decision today. And usually people I work with, are here for the long run, honouring that we have a commitment to each other, but that it means showing up in our truth.
I am no longer here to enable toxic corporate capitalism beliefs that harm my physical, mental and emotional health. I am no longer promoting anything other than a cyclical life (usually a slow rhythm) honouring inner and outer seasons. I no longer abide by urgency or stacked calls, or a filled calendar. I simply can't. I cannot build the matriarchal world I want to live in, and be in service to my community in a depleted body. The Mother needs juicyness and plumpness in life, she needs turn on and the erotic aliveness that is creative energy. Let's honour that.