05/12/2025
Our basic purpose, Recovery...
🔹 Student Success Story 🔹
Over the last several weeks, I've felt a steady return of energy and focus. My mind is clearer, and I'm able to stay present with myself in a way that feels grounded instead of scattered.
I have a greater ability to look inward and observe my patterns and trace them back to their root. This helped me see what's REALLY been happening in certain areas of my life, instead of judging how I "appear" to be doing in the eyes of others. I noticed how my drug relapses often showed up during times when everything looked good from the outside, but internally I was really just avoiding emotions, disconnecting from my body and neglecting my personal world. Pretending...
With increased clarity, I became aware of my behaviour patterns: avoiding difficult feelings, chasing intensity to escape pain, relying on validation, using relationships to regulate my emotions, sabotaging stability because chaos felt familiar, and withdrawing when I felt misunderstood. This revelation has been one of the biggest gains I've had. I understand what healing actually looks like for me: facing emotions instead of running, building my worth from within, feeling safe in stability, reconnecting with my body, keeping consistent routines, and staying connected. I'm more centered and more aligned with myself. It didn't fix everything of course, but it opened up the space to see what I've been avoiding and what I need to focus on moving forward. It feels like the start of getting myself truly back on track.
