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18/01/2026

08/01/2026

You don’t heal by becoming unbothered or pretending things don’t affect you. That version of “strength” often comes from numbness, not peace. Real healing asks you to slow down and look directly at what hurts—without minimizing it, joking it away, or comparing your pain to someone else’s. It’s allowing yourself to admit, this mattered to me, even when doing so feels vulnerable or inconvenient. Suppressing emotions might help you survive, but honesty is what helps you actually heal.

Choosing yourself doesn’t always look graceful or confident. Sometimes it looks like setting boundaries you wish you didn’t need, resting when you feel guilty for stopping, or walking away from situations that still pull at your heart. Healing is a daily choice to honor your feelings instead of abandoning them for comfort, approval, or familiarity. When you choose yourself anyway—despite the discomfort—you stop reopening the same wounds and start building a life that feels safer, truer, and more whole.

— Balt

02/01/2026

The Damage Done When You’re Forced to Be “Reasonable” About What Hurt You.

There is a specific kind of wound that doesn’t come from chaos.

It comes from being told to stay calm
about something that wasn’t okay.

To be fair.
To be understanding.
To “see both sides.”

While something in you was being crossed, ignored, or broken.

You weren’t allowed to rage.
You weren’t allowed to fall apart.
You weren’t allowed to say, This is wrong.

You were asked to be reasonable.

So you learned how.

You explained harm instead of feeling it.
You intellectualised pain instead of protesting it.
You made sense of things that should have been stopped — not analysed.

And people praised you for it.

“You’re so mature.”
“You’re very self-aware.”
“You handle things so well.”

But inside, something went quiet.

Not healed.
Muted.

Because here’s the truth no one tells you:

Being reasonable in unreasonable situations doesn’t make you strong.
It teaches your nervous system that your instincts are dangerous.

That anger is unsafe.
That clarity costs connection.
That staying attached requires self-erasure.

So you became composed instead of protected.
Insightful instead of defended.
Calm instead of safe.

That isn’t growth.

That’s containment.

And it’s why, later, you might feel numb where anger should live.
Why you can explain your trauma perfectly but still feel disconnected.
Why your body feels tired even when you “understand everything.”

You didn’t lose your anger because you healed.

You lost it because it wasn’t allowed.

Here’s the reframe that changes everything:

Anger isn’t regression.
It’s orientation.

Not explosive rage — but clean anger.
The kind that says: That crossed a line.
That shouldn’t have happened.
I deserved protection.

You don’t heal by making peace with what violated you.
You heal by restoring your right to respond honestly.

You were never meant to be reasonable
about things that required safety — not perspective.

Your composure was survival.
Your maturity was adaptation.

And now, you’re allowed to give yourself something back:

The dignity of saying — without explaining, softening, or justifying —

That was not okay.

And letting your body finally agree.

That agreement isn’t anger taking over.

It’s you coming back online.

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01/01/2026

“You are not controlled by your genes. You are controlled by your beliefs." – Bruce Lipton

31/12/2025

“We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.” ― Anaïs Nin

31/12/2025

Tears can look different under a microscope depending on their emotional or physiological origin. This idea was popularized by photographer Rose-Lynn Fisher in her project The Topography of Tears, where she used a microscope to photograph the crystallized salt patterns of different kinds of tears. What she found was that tears triggered by emotion (like grief or joy) appeared different in structure from those caused by irritants (like chopping onions) or reflex tears (like those that flush out dust or wind).

Here's a general breakdown:

Basal tears (the kind that keep your eyes lubricated) have a relatively uniform appearance.

Reflex tears (from irritants like smoke or onion) are more watery and contain fewer proteins.

Emotional tears tend to have more complex and varied patterns, possibly due to the different hormones and proteins they contain, such as stress hormones like cortisol.

29/12/2025

Aldous Huxley /
"Medical science has made such tremendous progress that there is hardly a healthy human left."
"Aldous Leonard Huxley was an English writer and philosopher. He wrote nearly 50 books—both novels and non-fiction works—as well as wide-ranging essays, narratives, and poems. Born into the prominent Huxley family, he graduated from Balliol College, Oxford, with an undergraduate degree in English literature."