28/10/2025
Hello 👋
I don’t even know what to do anymore, So my husband and I got married about a year and a half ago.
Things were great while we were dating, but from the day we got married things changed. Literally, as soon as we got back from our wedding and got to his house.
I went in and got all ready for him to return inside. I waited for what seemed like a good while. I got my dress back on and walked out to find him talking to his neighbor trying to get information on his ex wife.
He spent a lot of time consumed in what she was doing in the beginning months. So, I tried to rekindle our connection and intimacy. I got some spicy outfits and he seemed to like them. I told him whenever he wanted me to wear them, let me know.
That way I felt wanted and also that gave him the ability to voice his wants to me. He never did. When it comes to planning dates, being there for me when I need him, being spontaneous, or excited about our marriage, he just doesn’t do that. We are really struggling financially and I have picked up extra hours at work and he has slacked more and more at his job, making us late on bills. He used to comment on girls posts calling them gorgeous and stunning, but all I hear is “I like that. Looks good”.
I know I may be being dramatic but I feel so crushed and alone. When I bring up these concerns to heal and for things to change, it’s swept under the rug.
I want to forgive but it just feels like we are in this constant cycle of me begging for my needs to be heard and him to put action to consistent empty words.
And I’m so tired of being made to lead our family and take care of all of the mental load for everyone.
I’m currently in my car (this is where I plan to sleep) in our driveway while he is sitting inside eating and watching videos. I can’t eat, sleep, or even think straight.
