08/01/2021
I'm going to ramble for a moment, and I'm going to enjoy it. Sometimes things are hard. I haven't quite figured out the formula to "love and light" my way out of having pain in my life. I wouldn't if I could. (well maybe but the mature part of me knows that it's not a good idea so I would try really really hard to resist :) ) we can throw all of the cliches at the situations... that which doesn't kill us, fake it til you make it...etc, and we find a way to make it through. On the really good days, we not only survive but thrive. I get all of that, I really do.
I would like to take a moment to acknowledge the parts that no one ever mentions when talking about resiliency and the ability to bounce back, recover, survive, conquer, or whatever else we do to the problems in our lives. In case you haven't noticed, I truly love quips and little sayings and odd quotes. There is one that I don't remember the exact words to, but its along the lines of I may get my ass kicked, but you will have no doubt that you've been in a fight. It means that the person that wins will be in just as bad of shape as the person that loses, no one will go down without a fight. Well, our problems have that mindset at times. We win, we always win...we 're still here and kicking...but we definitely know that we have been in a fight. It's ok to acknowledge that.
I am still here...and I definitely know that I have been in a fight. Physically, emotionally, spiritually...hell, even the words that I can't think of right now are bruised and battered. I won, I am here...and I still have healing to do. They are not mutually exclusive phenomenon.
Take the time to breathe, to heal, to acknowledge the war that you have just come through....today I need that healing before I take that victory lap, because I am too exhausted to make it in the condition that I am in. That is more than ok...it's real and it makes sense.
Own your victory and tend to your wounds...and carry on with your badass self.