09/22/2025
The Performance of Health is an essay I wrote about the harm perpetuated by the very systems meant to provide care. It examines the structural violence of medicine — how disbelief, dismissal, and delay become routine barriers, enforced by institutions and reinforced by doctors who do not listen.
The piece blends personal narrative with deep research on medical trauma and the systemic failures occurring in medicine.
It traces how patients learn to perform wellness — polished, polite, “credible” — simply to access care, and asks what becomes possible when we stop performing and begin reclaiming the systems our bodies inhabit.
Meghan O’Rourke’s The Invisible Kingdom offered a framework for situating these stories within a broader cultural reckoning with chronic illness and medical disbelief. Her book, The Invisible Kingdom: Reimagining Chronic Illness, changed my life. When I later shared my essay, inspired by her book, an editor at STAT News called it powerful. That led to my acceptance to Goucher for an MFA in creative non-fiction.
I share it here as part of a broader effort to recognize patient testimony as knowledge — knowledge that must shape the future of care.
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