01/18/2026
I remember standing in the middle of my little shop, trying to explain to a beloved staff member what I meant when I said that I loved what we had built with Queen City Alchemy, but I had to find a way to “rub a little dirt on it.”
I guess I should have known then that it was the beginning of the end. Everything was too light, too bright, too perfect, too clean. I had changed, and I just couldn’t take it anymore. I needed more nuance. I needed a container for the complexity. I think I probably needed to scream.
I guess you can’t just rub a little dirt on something that needs to be finished.
You have to let it decompose.
You have to become the soil.
Resilience isn’t bouncing back.
It’s continuing after irreversible change.
New essay in the Ecology of Resilience series, Resilience Is Not Recovery.
Link in bio.
Stay tuned for next Sunday’s essay, Living Systems Don’t Optimize.
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