09/05/2021
I laid in bed last night unable to sleep. Not a deep breath & not a positive thought could calm the nerves to help me sleep. Was it the early morning wake up for an airport pick-up or lack of dopamine causing this anxiety. I literally wanted to jump out of my skin. Y’all know that feeling. 🤨
At some point I finally fell asleep. Alarm went off and I could barely get myself out of bed, y’all know that feeling. I told myself I’d go back to bed when I got home from the airport, which I tried & didn’t work. Again, feeling so much anxiety, nothing could calm the nerves. Normally this is where my substance abuse habits would take over. Thank you sobriety 🙏🏼
Now, today was suppose to be an active recovery day, no running or lifting - most likely a lot of mobility and fascia work. None of that would fix this feeling. 🤦🏻♂️
So I decided to go for a run & run away from the feelings. If you’re a runner, you know you solve a lot of life problems during your runs. In this run, I changed the narrative. 😁
I wasn’t running away, I was running towards something. I was running towards discomfort, pain, and suffering. Vacation is nice and all, but I got really comfortable. Beach, food, sunsets, and sleep. All good and you need that, but I needed to feel alive. I have a huge ass blister from some new orthotics I have in my shoes (dealing with some foot pain) & while it hurt, it made me feel alive and my senses were on blast. At the end of the day I just needed to GETSTUNG! 🐝
Do you run from your problems or do you run towards a solution? 🤔
