12/17/2020
One of the paradoxical things that's happening with this year is that whatever usual strategy we have to deal with loss, with vulnerability, with fear, with loneliness is becoming overworked. It's like we get to see it so clearly, because for many of us it's gone from being a secret helper to a one-person-monologue, a burnt out performer that's always on and keeps us from feeling and moving with the deepest most tender truths of our life process: impermanence, loss, vulnerability, change. Whether it's anger, or seizing control, or consuming, or ignoring and hoping, or thinking, likely by now most of us are in no doubt of what ours is. For most people, it came into being a long time ago to protect us from overwhelm and vulnerability in the absence of support, or safety. But like any muscle, our compensatory tendencies can take over, seize up and obscure our innate deepest knowing of how to let go and move through. So, as we approach this darkest, sacred time of the year, this possibility of reversal and renewal and deep resting, I wish all of you that you find ways to honor your inner guards and yet give them and yourself a break, that you notice moments where can you rest and feel deeply and melt what's accumulated from this year and find or create safe sacred space and support. Sometimes, it's just a small reach, a slight adjustment, a human moment of connection waiting to happen, a little bit of fresh air and sun to start something new.
