07/28/2025
Since reading Mel Robbins “The 5 Second Rule”, I’ve been making less excuses to getting out of bed, been working on being productive at my job, and more conscious about my health for the last few weeks. I struggle getting out of bed, I have THREE alarms. 6am, 6:30am and 6:50am. Often I get up at 6:50 and drag myself to my desk and start to log in dreading waking and rolling to work. Then complain about not having time to do what *I* want to do. Since adopting the rule I have been consistent in getting up at 5:30am just to start my job at 6am. While I love the extra $$$ still…felt that I was not fully satisfied. But bills need to be paid right. Today this morning was different. I got up and sat in the middle of my kitchen for a while, stretching, moving, blank in the head. “What do I do?” These last few months I’ve been focusing on my health and body, I can pick up where I left off. But where did I leave off? Where am I going back? Am I to be a helpful Reiki master? A birth doula? Do I continue to educate others, if so on what? What is my purpose, my dharma. I don’t know right now in this moment. Some would freak out at the idea of of losing all motivation. I choose not to because this is a critical time for me to wander in what my heart wants. Do I still want to help people? How do I want to help if I still do? I am not often surrounded by the strongest community for encouragement snd support and mostly have myself. And that often bites. What I do know is that this is not to be feared, it is a point of growth and many are scared of it because it means a change is coming. If you ever been feeling lost, unmotivated and anxious. Do what I did. Have a slow morning, don’t log into the world just yet, sit or lay on the middle of your floor and just breathe. The more relaxed you are, the less stress you’ll feel about what storm is going down inside. I share this in full transparency and clarity and hope this will help someone else too. Now if you’ll excuse me, it’s time to clock in.
