04/24/2026
This one is personal. I grew up in an era where women were in a constant, quiet war with getting older. Nobody questioned it.
Youth was beauty. Beauty was worth. And that was just the water we all swam in.
But here’s what I’ve come to understand: that same “not good enough” doesn’t just show up at the mirror.
It shows up in our weight, our work, our relationship status, our parental status.
It shows up everywhere we’ve quietly decided we’ll love ourselves more when.
In my early forties I tried Botox for the first time. And then a handful of times after that.
Each time convincing myself it was fine.
Each time something in me feeling slightly off.
But it wasn’t until I started asking the harder question that everything shifted.
I had spent years doing the deep work of loving every version of myself. Elementary school Jessica. Teenage Jessica. The Jessica of her twenties and thirties. I had loved them all.
And then I realized, the one version I was withholding that love from was the one I hadn’t met yet.
The one with lines on her face.
The one I was quietly bracing for.
The one I was spending money to delay.
Because unconditional self-love isn’t just about loving who you’ve already been and who you are today.
It’s also about loving who you’re still becoming.
Episode 4 of Live Lighter is about what it actually means to love yourself unconditionally & what it looks like when you find the place where you quietly aren’t.
It’s not about Botox.
It’s about the question underneath it.
🎙️ Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/episode/3mFCihs6j9oeysjZYbWOBz?si=0e1cdd0f2d7c46ceListen
🎙️ Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/my-breakup-with-botox/id1878849254?i=1000763421750