04/24/2025
I know I don’t normally share much about my personal experiences here on Instagram. But for Cesarean Awareness month, I’d really like to share my story.
I was in labor for 30 hours.
The beginning felt manageable, even hopeful. But early on, something was done without my consent—an intervention I absolutely did not need and one I didn’t fully understand the impact of until much later. It altered the course of my entire birth.
My labor stalled at 8 centimeters. My baby started going into distress. After hours of trying to hold on, the doctor made the call: I needed a C-section.
I remember lying there in the operating room, shaking, overwhelmed, terrified, tears running down my face, and completely disconnected from everything I thought birth would be.
I had a baby.
I had surgery.
And I had this aching mix of gratitude and grief.
It’s taken time to untangle it all: the joy of a healthy baby, the anger about how things unfolded, the sadness over what I lost, and the numbness that settled into my body and my scar.
I didn’t feel like myself. I didn’t feel like I had a say or a right to complain. After all, my baby arrived happy and healthy. And I didn’t feel like anyone was talking about what happens after the C-section—emotionally, physically, somatically.
That’s why I’m creating a C-section scar release program. Healing is more than just closing an incision. It’s about softening what’s been holding, reconnecting to your body, and making space for the parts of the story that never got to be spoken.
If any of this feels familiar, I want you to know you’re not alone.
You’re not broken.
And there’s a path to healing that honors every part of your experience.
