Transparent Beauty by Erin

04/28/2022

This changed my life when I truly accepted that my body is a master at healing. 🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿💛

04/22/2022

My favorite way to start the day. 🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼

03/30/2022

Me and my late husband, Central Park, NYC 2003.

6 months after this photo was taken I went back to this rock to leave a little bit of his ashes (he wanted me to leave some in all the places we had been).

Within one year I had lost my mom, my husband, and our unborn child.

For a long time after that anxiety gripped my life in its tight, unforgiving way.

I was terrified of dying.

I was terrified of living.

My body was always uncomfortable.

I never wanted to make long term plans, because just my very existence seemed so unstable.

What was the point of dreaming or planning or anything if there was a decent chance I would just die anyway? (Sounds a bit crazy now)

It took me MANY years of internal work to overcome this powerful energy of panic and anxiety.

I have come a long way and I know this, but sometimes these feelings still show up in my life.

I have days that I feel scared to keep building my dreams for fear of losing David or one of my kids.

Some days I can feel tightness in my breath and my muscles that remind me of what my life used to be like all the time.

These past few days have been rough for me.

Why? I have no idea. But I have felt it in every bit of my body and mind.

I think that my cells just remember the trauma more intensely at certain moments … my mind remembers the anguish it lived in for so long.

And it blindsides me.

So tonight I’m having Grace with myself, reminding myself to breathe deeply, and honor the terribly rough road I’ve traveled in learning to heal from trauma.

Tomorrow is a new day. ❤️

03/25/2022

I’ve had to hold some strong boundaries lately with some people close to me.

That’s never easy. 😕

The subject of being “open minded” has come up so I have pondered my thoughts on what exactly that means to me …

Being open minded doesn’t mean that you have to accept everyone and everything into your life.

Being open minded doesn’t have to look like you not speaking up for what you believe in.

It doesn’t mean that you are judgmental just because you have boundaries and standards in your life.

“Open mindedness” that is applauded by society often is simply a facade for being a door mat.

For me, being truly open minded means allowing others to have their own experiences and opinions while also holding my healthy boundaries strong around what is good for me and my family.

Don’t let “acceptance” be just an excuse to perpetuate your weakness.

You can most definitely love others without sacrificing your own beliefs. ✌🏼

(Photo cred )

03/13/2022

I’ve always been a hard worker.

I know how to hustle towards a goal and fight hard for what I want.

But thru out the years, no matter how hard I worked, I never felt completely comfortable or happy in my own life.

Along with being good at putting my feet to the pavement, I was also really good at:

blaming others for my emotional state,

feeling like life was happening TO me, that I had no control…

playing victim to my circumstances,

and being threatened by others success instead of being inspired by it.

It wasn’t until I chose to OWN my entire life,

Every bit of it, the good, the bad, and the ugly,

that I finally found contentment, inspiration, and true happiness.

I learned that believing EVERYTHING in life is happening FOR me and not TO me (yes even the bad stuff) is what fuels infinite personal power in all areas of my existence.

Crafting your own life is not hard.

Being in victim mindset is.

Accomplishing your goals doesn’t have to be a struggle.

Living in un truth absolutely will be.

Taking full responsibility for every bit of who you are is the simplest way to freedom.

And it’s always worth it! 💛💛

(Photo cred , the amazing )

03/11/2022

One of my favorite things to do with my kids is hike.
They generally hate it when we are just starting out 🤣 but as we continue farther into the mountains, they forget that feeling and enjoy the serenity of the woods. 🌲🌲🌲🌲
Sometimes my job as a mom is to push my kids to do things that at first seem tiring or not fun, so that they can experience the exhilaration that comes from stepping out of their comfort zone. 🌼

03/05/2022

Life with a teenager. 🤣☺️💞

03/02/2022

Getting ready for an awesome day of styled shoots and content creation at 📸📸📸
What a beautiful day for it!! Love supporting my fellow entrepreneurs

02/22/2022

02/21/2022

Breathe 🧘🏼

02/19/2022

Horses make everything better. ❤️❤️❤️
What a great trail ride with great friends!! 🤠 .banana831

02/19/2022

Happy 14th birthday to my amazing daughter …. We love you soooooo much!!!! 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞