01/14/2026
You’re not confused. You’re grieving.
That’s the part no one really talks about when it comes to awakening. We say things like “I’m stuck” or “I feel off” — but what’s actually happening is that a version of you… died. Quietly. The self that held it all together, that knew how to survive, that knew who to be around certain people just to feel safe — she collapsed. And now your spirit’s just standing in the aftermath, trying to figure out what parts are even real anymore.
You don’t need to rush out of this. You don’t need to force clarity. You’re not behind. You’re in-between. And yeah — it’s uncomfortable here. You’ll probably want to label it or fix it or escape it. But this space is sacred. This is where the new self comes. Not with fireworks or sudden peace, but through space. Through silence. Through surrender.
So stop trying to rebuild so fast. Stop pretending you’re okay just because you know how to spiritually perform. You’re not meant to be fine right now. You’re meant to be honest.
Let yourself fall apart. That’s how you honor who you were. That’s how you make room for who you’re becoming.