01/11/2026
I Am Not Afraid of the Dark
Do you remember that ‘90s TV show, Are you afraid of the dark? I was young, not even a teenager yet and I remember watching that show and saying “Yes, I Am afraid of the dark,” but I watched it anyway. It creeped me out to my core at the time. At night I would hop into bed and quickly pull up my feet because I feared something, a demon, would grab them and pull me under. I thought that if I just stayed still under the covers with my back against the wall, I would be safe. At least that’s what I told myself.
I spent many years being afraid, afraid of the stories my mind would spin and create. It has taken me years to unravel and unlearn all the narratives I’d been telling myself, the lies my nervous system had become used to. It wasn’t even just the silly tv stories. Over time it became an accumulation of meeting other’s expectations, pleasing people and making myself small to “fit in”. Before I knew it, I no longer recognized who I was, nor did I like what I saw. I had become a version of myself surviving the onslaught of negative emotions, thoughts and beliefs, not only my own, but from other people, places and cultures.
I have faced my fears head-on, asking why. Why do you frighten me so? When I dug deeper and deeper into them, the pain became unbearable at times, but yet the relief I often found in the end was so much more powerful and sustaining that I would dare to face as many as possible. The healing that came with facing my pain was so peaceful I wanted to keep going. I want to heal so much I get back to my divine state of being - a state of pure loving energy. Not sure if I’ll get there in this lifetime, but to me it’s worth the effort.
Today, after years of healing, I still walk through darkness every day. A major difference from when I was a child is that I’m able to see without engaging or reacting. I see darkness around me every day while still seeing see the light and good around me too. I’ve shifted to observing and responding, taking ownership of my choices and intentions. I know and choose to live in light and love. To be guided by my inner wisdom, to take action where I’m guided to take action and be still and quiet when I need to. Not every battle is mine to partake in. I am here to play my part, help others find their own inner light, inner love and inner wisdom and be a shinning beacon in the night and chaos of the world. Love and peace is possible through healing, the sometimes painful healing that needs to take place.
The state of the world is a big infected wound right now. What do you do with infection? You clean it out before it can begin to create new flesh. The antidote is Love. Learning to Love yourself and extending that to others. Learning to project your self-love onto others instead of pain and hate.
Acknowledge your own pain, feel all your emotions and face it yourself. You have it within you to do so. Find the courage and strength and ask your higher self and spiritual team for help! Trust that they will. They Love You!
You are not a lesser person for feeling broken, messy or lost, in fact it can and will become your strength. These painful times are a lesson to be learned from, not to get stuck in. You have the choice to get lost for a while and that’s ok!! Sometimes we all need to get lost and take a few hits before we rise again. We can do it!
Healing and moving forward is all in the basis of Love. Love can be fueled by anger. Use that fire for a better future. Love and remember that everyone, All People, are learning, evening those that seem to be in power.
Just Love and be Loved in Return.
If you feel called to deepen your healing journey, there are gentle ways to begin. You’re welcome to visit www.intuitivehealingsllc.com to book a Reiki session and receive supportive guidance along your path. Or, if you prefer to begin in your own time and space, my book Love, Light & Healing is available online at www.amazon.com/author/katyangeregg or at The Local Store in Eau Claire.
